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"60" next year oh fucking wow.
6/22/2006 7:23 am Last Read: |
59 this June spent a five day fuck feast get a way. Treated by a quite young female who I mentor. What the fuck is wrong with me,,? Last evening attended my high school reunion committee planning diner. It will be our 40th. Hadn't seen some of these people in 5 years. So old they aged in 5 years. 4 had died in the last five years. Didn't make it,,and where missed. What the fuck is wrong with me,,? It's Thursday again, My dance and party night. I wait all week looking forward to. All thats missing is the fire on the open plains to dance around. Within me, always, hearing the drums and songs of my Native ancestors. Who never leave me. What the fuck is wrong with me,,? This Thursday night I'm also looking forward to a session at a low rent motel. With a 41 yo female masochist. Evil satiating no limit match to my sadistic self. She, who can't get it from her hubby. Savors deeply completely in the cheat we create. Yet loves him, her children and marriage so. What the fuck is wrong with me,,,,? In my 59th year little has changed for me. As in the majority of my years before. I still am non monogamous. Fail to sustain any one on one relationship. Even poly ones,(supposedly) never last a year. Fuck off ! Of course it is always more my fault than theirs. What they fuck is wrong with me,,? Logically inner processes have begun in my hyper focus mind. In preparation for my 60th year here on planet earth. Realisticly with the age gap factor. In some things I want to and will retire. After a while anyones patients suffer Don't ya know. What the fuck is wrong with me,,? I have to say I have met a rare few male and female vintages as me. Lost and gifted on planet earth like me. Still proving stereotyping, religion, and society wrong. So I am sure, that I am not alone, or the only one. What the fuck is wrong with me,,,? Absofuckinglutely nothing,,,indeed. Nothing more than most, just been living it longer. X~ |
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6/24/2006 11:55 am |
I'm beginning to understand.
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6/25/2006 9:42 pm |
"Absofuckinglutely nothing,,,indeed" i couldn't agree more. peace~
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6/29/2006 10:12 am |
*~* Happy Birthday you primal beast!! *~* ~ Living, Loving & Laughing ~
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