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Hello againn
7/7/2008 7:05 pm |
I believe that people mistakenly forget that everybody, including me, has emotions and deserves to be in a relationship. I wrote the following to let people know that I spend a lot of time thinking about sex and I can assure you that its fictional, so far. Of course, I would like to experience as much of the following as possible, but I will trade all of my wants for to have the same woman to pleasure every night for the rest of my life. All my life I have been fascinated by how sexy a womans clothes could make her look and then how the way she was dressed would give her the power over a lesser male, which is what I consider myself to be. When I was younger, I used to imagine I was on a budget, and then I would look through catalogs and find a wardrobe, which usually resulted in a sticky cum-filled towel. As long as I can remember I have wanted to be the sexy woman that turned heads, that made people take a second look, one who men like me would think of as they masturbated into a towel each night. Or just an average woman with average dress, one who was just a woman, I literally fantasize about being in your shoes also. I have a slender build with long, and I believe shapely, legs that I know would help as I attempt to pass as a woman. I guess this leads me into another part of my fantasy, to give a man a blowjob while Im dressed as a woman, then to be rewarded with his load which I unquestionably will choke on as it tries to find a path to my stomach. Or if I was a woman, to kneel as a long line of men fucked my mouth until each man blew his load in my mouth. Whatever cum drooled from my lips would be caught in a bowl so I, being a good little slut, could swallow every last drop of cum. From that vision that I just left you with, you know that many of my fantasies involve a man. While I have never had any sexual experiences with a man, I will admit that its probably due more to the fact that an opportunity has not presented itself than any unwillingness by me. I understand what makes a cock attractive to women and why theyre drawn to them, because it must empower a woman when she allows a man to shoot his load off into her mouth, her pussy, her ass, or just off into space. I dream about being that woman. Either in panties, or my regular boxers, I dream about being in the arms of a man as we passionately make out. If Im lucky, maybe hell allow me to suck his cock, lick his balls, and let me kiss his asshole. I know that Ill be scared and may have second thoughts, so I may need to be reminded that I asked for his cock and told to suck it. One fantasy of mine happens this way, a weekend trip with a man who kept me as his girlfriend. I guess it shouldnt come as a surprise that a large percentage of my porn collection (which totals over 150 movies) has a common theme, which I really enjoy watching. Oral sex. I dream of being a woman whose head is held as a man fucks my face. We would go out to restaurants, to movies, shopping for anything he wanted, shopping for me for whatever displayed me as being his slut, then making out with him and massaging his body until we fall to sleep. I really would enjoy letting someone else take charge of my sex and love lives, which as we speak is nonexistent. Mostly, what I would need if anything ever happened, would be a strong friendship first, and then quietly wed have us. Ultimately, although I feel that there is still a lot that I need to experience, I hope to find a woman who has similar interests to complete me personally and help me build a life that well share. I realize that Im asking a lot, and basically Im just looking for a woman who will accept me and expects to be admired and worshipped. From this woman I would expect to be trained in how to make her sexual experience better. I want her to control me. I hope shell let me experience my sexual fantasies, but as long as I have her, Ill be satisfied. One fantasy of mine is that I find an athletic woman who jogs, or just any sweaty woman. After she is finished with her runs and is all sweaty, I find this to be extremely sexy. I would lick every inch of her body; spend extra time sucking her toes because of my foot fetish. Then having me probe her sweaty asshole with my tongue, then grinding her pussy into my face until she is satisfied. The woman that lets my love and myself encompass her I intend to make believe that as far as Im concerned, she is the solitary individual in my heart. I know that other men can do more physically, but theres not a doubt in my mind that we will feel more of a connection as while were kissing and I holding you tight, I slowly but deliberately thrust my cock deep inside her. I know that its my responsibility to please a woman, so I make love with only her fulfillment as my goal. I realize that because of my condition, people might be unwilling to help me because they fear they could get in trouble. You can rest assured that if anybody questions us, Ill make it clear that its my decision. If that doesnt satisfy them, ask if theyre aware that saying anything would be discrimination. I really hate to think about using my injury as leverage to get ahead, but it wont get me ahead, it will just help me become a person. |
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