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winding down
12/10/2007 1:38 pm Last Read: |
it seems like this is the sort of weather december brings. things are almost over and it seems the weather reflects that. well it's almost over if your a college student, unfortunatly real jobs tend to not work that way. another thing i relate this season with is contemplation. it's a time to look back and see how you did. what improved? what didn't? what are you thankful for? did this year suck the big one? or was it the best one yet? one of my friends said something like this, "we're all doing the best we can the best we know how to do" and i like it. i think it applies to everyone and you know that's what i tell myself when people act rudely or totally unaware of their surroundings. to me it might be obvious but i'm not them, i don't know what their thinking. see, this season screams reflection so much that i'm doing it already. that's for my lj, not for here. no one really cares about that. but looking back i can say this has been one of the great years in my life. i met daddy and we started to be an offical item. and because of this i've learned so much about myself and how i interact with people. i'm learning to be more open to people and just because people act a certain way in the past doesn't mean that they will always act that way. i think that's a big thing about any sort of relationship, it forces you to be fully naked in front of another person flaws and all. and well even if you're okay with yourself being in front of someone like that is unnerving. it takes awhile to get used to it even if you trust and love that person because we're not used to that. and it also makes you look inside yourself and recognize certain things about yourself. and i'm really grateful for that. i don't remember if i particurly met anybody new this year on alt. i don't think i did. i really started to just slow down on here. mainly because i feel like i don't have much to say as i've said before. though i do comment on my friends blogs here and there to say no, i'm not gone, i just don't have anything particuarly thrilling to say. this year in all aspects have been really good for me. also i haven't had that much trouble with depression this year. when i've had it i've started to open up with that and my emotions. and well that's hard, letting someone see you like that but it's better to have someone to listen to you and help you feel better than dealing with it by yourself. so i hope ya'll have a good holiday and all that. i feel like i'm repeating myself a lot so i'll just stop it there. but besides that, i have to say i got the greatest email today. it started off as "So this guy walks into a bar" and then they say hi to me. what the fuck? someone spends to much of their time in rpg groups. forgot to add another thing, if he knew me he knew he wouldn't find me at a bar. i don't drink and everyone that knows me knows that. so the only reason you'd find me at a bar is if daddy was with me and really i don't think i would pay that much attention to you if he was there.lol nice try, but just a cigar too short. |
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12/10/2007 4:34 pm |
I read, and I say to my self that anyone You think of as a friend is a very lucky person One hand claps ... For you
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12/10/2007 8:06 pm |
I read, and I say to my self that anyone You think of as a friend is a very lucky person  thank you li.
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