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Low Tolerance
4/17/2007 3:15 am Last Read: |
original post date; Friday, December 01, 2006 Last night, Mistress and I attended Club DV8. DV8 is a cross between a dungeon party and a goth club. This creates a varied mix of people, from long time lifestyle partners, to young gothlings to vanillas who would never normally find themselves in a dungeon. Generally, we meet friends there, and socialize in between playing. This time, we were there alone, even though Mistress did talk with a local Dom for a bit. I enjoy socializing with our friends at these events, but to be honest, I enjoyed being the center of Mistress's attention. Our play was not overly harsh, as Mistress was taking into account my extremely long work week. This was welcome, because taking a lot of pain requires a great deal of strength, physical and mental, and I was at the low end of both. And it showed. While nothing Mistress did to me was overly hard, it very much felt so. I started crying soon into our scene. Usually I get to this point after a fairly lengthy warm up and increasingly intense sensations. By the time Mistress is using the Legree on me the tears are flowing free. But it did not take long that night. I cannot explain why, something just clicked inside of me, and the tears came. I knew I was tired and stressed from work, but I did not really FEEL those things. I feel bad when I cannot take much, because I know Mistress enjoys these moments, and I like to make them last as long as possible. Right at the end, while Mistress was scratching me, I said please. It was not intentional, I had no intention at all of safewording, something I have never done and never plan to do. But I was approaching all my mind could take at the moment. The please slipped out, but I managed to have enough discipline not to say stop. I think Mistress knew where I was mentally, as any connected partner would, and stopped play. I am not sure if she heard me or just read my physical signs, but she definitely knew I was ready to break. Hopefully next time we play, I will be in a better, stronger, mental state, and I can give Mistress more of what she wants. |
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