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Moon Bathing - A Study
3/25/2006 6:20 am Last Read: |
At sixteen Sabina took moon-baths, first of all because everyone else took sun-baths, and second, she admitted, because she had been told that it was dangerous. The effect of moon-baths was unknown, but it was intimated that it might be the opposite of the sun's effect. The first time she exposed herself she was frightened. What would the consequences be? There were many taboos against gazing at the moon, many old legends about the evil effects of falling asleep in moonlight. She knew that the insane found the moon acutely disturbing, that some of them regressed to animal habits of howling at the moon. She knew that in astrology the moon ruled the night life of the unconscious, invisible to consciousness. But then she had always preferred the night to the day. Moonlight fell directly over her bed in summer. She lay naked in it for hours before falling asleep, wondering what its rays would do to her skin, her hair, her eyes, and then deeper, to her feelings. By this ritual it seemed to her that her skin acquired a different glow, a night glow, an artificial luminousness which showed its fullest effulgence only at night, in artificial light. People noticed it and asked her what was happening. Some suggested she was using drugs. . . . The moon-baths crystallized many of Sabina's desires and orientations. Up to that moment she had only experienced a simple rebellion against the lives which surrounded her, but now she began to see the forms and colors of other lives, realms much deeper and stranger and remote to be discovered, and that her denial of ordinary life had a purpose: to send her off like a rocket into other forms of existence. Rebellion was merely the electric friction accumulating a charge of power that would launch her into space. She understood why it angered her when people spoke of life as One life. She became certain of myriad lives within herself. Her sense of time altered. She felt acutely and with grief, the shortness of life's physical span. Death was terrifyingly near, and the journey towards it, vertiginous; but only when she considered the lives around her, accepting their time tables, clocks, measurements. Everything they did constricted time. They spoke of one birth, one childhood, one adolescence, one romance, one marriage, one maturity, one aging, one death, and then transmitted the monotonous cycle to their children. But Sabina, activated by the moonrays, felt germinating in her the power to extend time in the ramifications of a myriad of lives and loves, to expand the journey to infinity, taking immense and luxurious detours as the courtesan depositor of multiple desires. The seeds of many lives, places, of many women in herself were fecundated by the moonrays because they came from that limitless night life which we usually perceive only in our dreams, containing roots reaching for all the magnificences of the past, transmitting the rich sediments into the present, projecting them into the future. In watching the moon she acquired the certainty of the expansion of time by depth of emotion, range and infinite multiplicity of experience. It was this flame which began to burn in her, in her eyes and skin like a secret fever. . . . - A Spy in the House of Love, Anais Nin *********** When I first read this book, I was rather surprised. Firstly, that erotica didn't have to be crude. And secondly, that someone actually had the same feeling about moon bathing as I did. I discovered a good portion of my friends - the wild, the wicked, slightly fae and freaky - all had done moonbathing at one time or another. However it wasn't just the moonbathing that resonated, but the hinting at polyamory, at the wish to break limitations and restrictions, all symbolised with her love of the moon. Perhaps that is why I adore the moon so much. I have often removed my clothing on the night of a full moon and just gone down to our sitting room, and basked. When my son was born, the very first full moon of his life, I took him with me to sit beneath the moonlight in New Forest, where we were living at the time. The moon shone in the sky like a silver sun, and it was nearly as bright as day outside. I used to spend hours gazing at it, basking in the silver glow on my skin. I've had the opportunity to swim beneath moonlight, and to give and receive pleasure from a group of seven as well. There is no more lovely sight than moonglow illuminating smiles and limbs entwined, I assure you. I was surprised at myself for to me my moonbathing is a very personal thing and not something I ever considered sharing before. However my lover at the time was an experimentalist and he often devised such entertainments - renting a room with a conservatory open to the sky, and so on. My feelings for the moon are so deep-seated that, if I have a potential lover who shows absolutely no interest in moonlight or in the beauty of the night, I can no longer be around them. The night is MY time, my wild time, infused with magic and adventure and sensuality. Necessity forces me to live a day-time existence, but I have always been nocturnal, and occasionally I switch over to a night-waking cycle. It seems to keep me in balance. I've recently re-read Anais' confessional story, and I'm itching already for a clear evening night, for the moon to be high in the sky, and a bit of quiet time to bathe. Two weeks. I can wait that long. |
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