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Woot *yawn*
1/28/2007 12:53 am Last Read: |
Ball was done, lots of pretty costumes and me feeling weird as being introduced as the person who came up with the idea - thus treatment like a minor celebrity. More awkward than I thought it would be but at least I didn't have to make a smeggin' speech. Still, much fun and pictures were indeed taken. When the pro-photographer gets them done I'll post one up. It felt a bit weird to be honest. I went there fully intending on getting my flirt on and being freaky. I even chatted with the gorgeous gingerhaired fellow from Newcastle every woman at the ball has been secretly admiring from afar for three years. He waited for a kiss. I couldn't give it to him - completely totally wimped out at the last minute in a way that literally shocked me as I walked away. I loved the dress, I loved my mask, people were brilliant and charming to me, but I just wasn't feeling it. My sexual energy is just utterly nonexistent. I've even considered shutting down my profile here, the Dark Tribe, everything. It's just so much fucking effort, and everyone wants a shag at the end. I'd rather get some sleep. And of course because everyone is so focussed upon sex as the most important thing in the universe for some reason, I'm even more a freak of nature than I was before. Maybe I'm just tired. Dunno. Off for a bath, a bit of late breakfast, then I'll putter round the house for a bit (a very SLOW putter, paracetamol isn't very effective for fibro pain), and unpack my stuff. |
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 1/28/2007 7:36 am |
You are very sexual but You are also about more that just sex. Perhaps Your standards rose and You will choose those that want more than the flesh that hosts Your true Essence. Mister GJ Marked male of the Feminine
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1/28/2007 8:21 am |
Ugh, that sucks. I often find it's the way things go when I build my expectations too much. I've always had the best times when I just turn up. See if you can't haul yourself down to the pub on Friday...we'll provide you with as much non-sexual entertainment as is possible given the company. As for expectations, I've deliberately kept them low since I fully expect to be the butt of Keres' jokes for at least half the evening...  _________________________________ "Shun-SHENG duh gao-WAHN." - Mal
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