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Searching For Me
8/22/2008 2:16 am Last Read: |
In my soul, at my core, I am many things that few people see. I am submissive, sensitive, fragile, sentimental, grounded, focused, rational, thoughtful, soft-spoken, shy, feeling, and empathetic. Most people see one who is aggressive, harsh, jaded, opinionated, loud-mouthed, rash, reactionary, dominant, irrational, and emotional. The truth is I am all of these things. I honestly possess all of these traits, qualities and characteristics. Im not sure why the parts of me that I present to the world at large are what they are. Perhaps, it is because I am also guarded. Perhaps, it is because I dont want to be viewed as one who can be taken advantage of or not taken seriously. I have had people in my life who have brought me more balance. These people in general have a calming influence over me. Most, but not all, of them have been doms. I seek a dominant life partner because my life experiences have taught me that will be the type of relationship in which I can grow, thrive, and become a better person. Before I found my submissive self, I had vanilla relationships and all of the qualities that I show to the world were there on the surface. For the most part, though not completely, I subjugated my submissiveness. I find a sense of peace when, not only I, but my partner can celebrate all parts of me. I need a man to nurture and feed my submissiveness and my masochism. I need a man who will know and cherish all of me. I need a man who will understand and appreciate what my submission means. I know that in finding a D/s relationship I will find a relationship in which I can wrap myself, and feel safe, protected, loved, and whole. There will be neither need nor desire to subjugate any part of me. There may, at times, be a need to rein in parts of me. But, I will not have to deny who I am. When I give myself to a man, dom, master, it will be because I see one who will understand and value the gift. He will be a man who will inspire me, nurture me, encourage me, love me, respect me, and celebrate me. He will also be one who I will want to serve to the best of my abilities. His needs, wants, and desires will become my own. I will love him, cherish him, celebrate him, respect him, and inspire him. I will provide him a relationship in which he can grow and become a better dom, and a better man. I am searching for this man because I know that when I find him I will find me. "imagination is more important than knowledge" ~ albert einstein |
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8/22/2008 5:12 pm |
Sounds very familiar. Knowing who you are, helps eliminate what cant accept. So many people can label you by seeing certain characteristics. But there are the selected few that get to see the whole picture and understand who we really are. Stay true to yourself. That person is out there and everything in your journey to him, makes you a better "JadedGypsy"! Thank you as always for the wonderful posts. ....like how you changed your profile ;o) Kitty  KiTtyCaT
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 8/23/2008 4:57 am |
This is one of your most awesomest posts D, I seriously got (happy) tears reading it because you are so aware of who and what you are. I've come to know, care about and value you tremendously because of your multifaceted personality. All those different characteristic make up on hell of an amazing woman! Huggs and Luvs, L.
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