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Why Jaded?
9/22/2008 1:46 am Last Read: |
I often get asked, Why are you jaded? This question has been posed several times recently which has made me think a bit about it. I used to answer the question by saying that I just always seemed to end up with the wrong men. Really thinking about it though I realized it is not as simple as that. Im a pragmatist and a realist. I tend to look at the world and see it for what it is and not what I want it to be. So when I look at my history and my life I too see that for what it is and not what I want it to be. I see that there have been many men with whom I have been involved that were not right for me. I see a few men who may have been right and I sabotaged the relationship before it had a chance. I see men I loved dearly who didnt really love me back. Most of all I see choices I made that were wrong for me. With all that I turn and face and see so clearly how can I not be a bit jaded? I think sometimes people think that it means I am anti-man, or even that I hate men. This is not the case at all. I love men. I am drawn to them. I have some really good friends who are men. Honestly I am as guarded and cynical about myself and my ability to choose appropriately for myself as I am about the intentions of men. This is not a man hater thing. I am jaded because I have lived and loved in a manner that at times is reckless and without thought for the consequences. I have made choices listening to my heart and being swept up in the moment and missing the red flags or not hearing the voices in my head warning me. But for as jaded, sarcastic, and cynical as I am, in the end, the one with whom I finally find a fit will find a warm, caring, thoughtful, loving, and dedicated woman under it all. It will be well worth it for him and for me. This I know. "imagination is more important than knowledge" ~ albert einstein |
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9/22/2008 6:07 am |
gypsy, one of my most favoritist things about you is that no-BS view of the world. i love that you take responsibility for all that happens to you; own up to it. you are a warm, loving and supportive woman and i'm lucky to have you as my friend. the man you will find (who will find you) is a lucky man indeed. hugs ~b all the world is birthday cake, so take a piece but not too much~ George H.
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9/22/2008 4:21 pm |
Says alot about a person when they truly understand and learn from themselves... As always, wonderful post. Kitty  KiTtyCaT
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9/25/2008 12:58 am |
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