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The Reason Why...
2/24/2011 11:23 am |
It has been quite the "Never a boring moment with Billie" since I let the woman in me completely loose...  And now that I have come out of the clouds, so to speak, and the newness of it all is gone for a while, at least until my SRS surgery, as then there will be another newness to it all... I had this clarifying thought last night, as I have tried for so long to come up with the actual reason why I, after becoming a full-time pre-op Male-To-Female TransSexual, identified as a Shemale. And as I started thinking about it again last night, I again, when it is people concerned, came to my reoccurring conclusion that it was an individual or personal choice to express "who I was", not "what I was". That choice was also heavily influenced by the fact that I felt that transsexual or transgender was not specific enough an expression of my person. I felt that the word trannie was demeaning as from my perspective and european education on the word it has been a demeaning way to refer to a transvestite for a very long time. And even though I was born a female in a male body, have been taking hormones for years it seems, have a beautiful shaped female body, my DL and Passport says Female, and I am considering to have SRS performed as soon as I can completely stop smoking, I still realize today with sadness in my heart that I could never honestly say that I was a complete woman and that I would never birth a baby. So I made then and still make the choice to identify with the word Shemale and it became some sort of a word of empowerment to me at the same time. Not All blacks can dance, Not All Chinese are good mathematicians, Not All Jews are good business men, Not All Scots are stingy and Not All Shemales are male hookers with breasts and a penis on viagra. In closing I wish to mention that I have had many debates on the subject with many transgendered and many have tried to make me think different, somehow, so please, enjoy the reading of my writing for what it is, an individual and personal thought, not an invitation to a political or religious discussion, debate or pissing contest. I teach and practice tolerance, to each his own so to speak, and I love and respect and accept people for who they are not for what they are. If I may ask, please extend me that same respect. And since I am concerned about the harmonius energy in my environment, I have with respect for my community, removed every single reference to the word shemale from my new site at tsbillie. Feel free to visit. Oh yeah, it ends in dot com. Love, Billie |
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3/5/2011 10:16 am |
Hi Billie Just wanted to let you know that Mama and i are in the SFV today and probably going to the Oxwood tonight (Sat). Don't know if you gurls are going out tonight but would love to meet you. You can message my blog mailbox if you want to make arrangements to connect. Thanks and have a wonderful day! xoxo, g PS. i have great stories- Mama took me to Trannies in Trouble at Threshold last night!  Bye for now, gmy name is giselle, but my friends call me g  Drop me a note and say hi here: My Blog Mailbox - All inquiries answered
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2/28/2011 7:57 pm |
Thanks for the nice response Billie! It is my pleasure to make your acquaintance. xoxo, g my name is giselle, but my friends call me g Drop me a note and say hi here: My Blog Mailbox - All inquiries answered
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2/24/2011 5:33 pm |
Hi Billie, i just wanted to thank you for your courage in discussing this openly. As a t-girl that doesn't plan to pursue SRS i often find myself a bit misplaced in the community as well. Reading your post, i found myself cheering you on for staying true to your own beliefs and values yet mourning the lack of acceptance it seems you've encountered at times. It seems as though the community at large doesn't want to legitimize the 'transition phase' as a place where someone might want to dwell. If i understand you correctly, it sounds as though you might choose to remain shemale if you opt out of the SRS? How that would disparage those who desire to make a complete transition to post-op is a mystery to me. "So I made then and still make the choice to identify with the word shemale and it became some sort of a word of empowerment to me at the same time." This makes perfect sense to me because you are embracing who you are and not letting society label you as "incomplete." To me a shemale is every bit as sexy and desireable as a genetic or transitioned girl and nobody should be made to feel 'less than' for being themselves. i think you're absolutely stunning as you are and whatever choice you ultimately make regarding the SRS i hope you will find love and support from those who matter most. Thanks for a bit of inspiration and for sharing yourself openly and honestly. i've included a link to a similar post of my own which echoes some of your sentiments: One small step for a slut... xoxo, g PS. Mama and i love the Oxwood and would be thrilled to see you girls up there sometime. my name is giselle, but my friends call me g Drop me a note and say hi here: My Blog Mailbox - All inquiries answered
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