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Something Was Different
5/14/2009 5:35 am |
There wasn't a simple explanation but i knew something was different about me long before i had any experience viewing BDSM or even simple porn for that matter. For whatever reason, while playing childhood games, i loved being submissive in any manner allowed. It didn't take much longer and i noticed that i was drawn to others that took charge and no matter what the task was, i found that i needed to go the extra distance to please those in charge. It's what drove me and what made me feel like something. Years later, in my early teens, i was fortunate enough to view some porn. Of course, i was drawn to the naked, beautiful women but when i finally saw a man and woman couple pictured, i was also drawn to the power that seemed to exude from the hard cock in the pictures. Being raised in a straight and religious home, this was a little confusing to me and held me back a little bit because i had been taught how it was simply wrong to be attracted to the same sex. It didn't stop me though as i needed to explore more and when i came across some pictures of a naked man in chains, there was no turning back. i had to know more. It was then that i began searching for more even though my resources were quite limited at the time. Went through the dating with girls in high school but i remember driving by the adult bookstores, seeing all the men entering, and patiently waiting to become of age so that i could see just what the attraction was there. Between the years of 18 and 21, i spent most of my time trying to bed down as many women as i could, giving little thought for my attraction to men and it wasn't long before i met some gals that had some BDSM interests. It was exciting but something was missing when i tied them up and teased them. The day finally came when i was old enough to enter the adult businesses. i was apprehensive but i ventured into a theater first. Oh how horny it made me to sit there and watch the vivid straight sex on the big screen but it was my exploratory nature that made me look elsewhere and i soon found some booths just outside of the theater. i was just amazed that i could select what kind of porn i wanted to see and within minutes, i was watching a man using another mans mouth. Just as i noticed that i was hard as a rock, another man entered the booth. My heart raced but i knew instantly where i belonged and that was on my knees. Perhaps i will tell the "rest of the story" at a later time (OK, i promise i will) but that seemed to be a pivotal moment in my life and though it was more than a little confusing, it still remains the point where that little light bulb comes on and you realize what is quite possibly your station in life. Even though i was confused, the monkey was off my back and i now had some kind of direction. |
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