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Moving On
5/24/2009 6:11 am |
Having just experienced the first real cock in my ass, it only confirmed what my previous Domme had shown me. i knew now for sure that the "cock" wins, hands down. Not only did i relish how it was powerful in my mouth but now i had no doubt that power was as great or greater in my ass too. It was at this time that i developed a constant hunger in both of my holes. i began to experiment more with what i like to call "vanilla m2m" sex. Don't get me wrong here. While i enjoyed each and every encounter, i still felt there had to be more. Given the ratio of bottom men to top men, most of these situations were with versatile married men. It seemed more like a "let's help each other out" type of situation to me and didn't allow me to serve and worship in the manner i think is required. So, yes, i did learn and grow from this but it really wasn't quite the whole scene i craved. i knew at this time that my need to please was far greater than getting off myself. In fact, i soon found that i really enjoyed earning the reward of cumming much more than actually cumming. That in itself really defines my nature and place in life. Chastity play seemed to fit into that real well. i began locking myself in a houdini chastity device when i was alone. Slowly i began training myself that i had to earn the right to take it off and cum. i have yet to wear it with someone else in charge of the scene but given this self-training, i have learned to walk that fine line very well and don't allow myself to cum in the physical sense. i have also learned that with proper manipulation, i can and have experienced all the effects of an orgasm without the actual discharge. i really hope to learn how to do this better and more often. All that it really takes is for a real man to take control of the natural slut in me and this edge play is a real turn on for me. i truly hope to find that one Dom that knows exactly how to bring this out. |
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