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My Cage ...
6/28/2011 4:57 pm |
I have been quiet. So much to say and yet no words to voice. It has been a time of solitude for me, and it has been a time to reflect. An unexamined life is not worth living. Sometimes I need to turn around and retrace my steps a little bit, during this process, I will find where I have departed from the path of happiness. In my world there is sometimes a need to crawl within my own cage, and curl up with my own thoughts and feelings. For me it is a time of growth, and a time to look at who I was, who I am, and who I strive to be. Within my cage I can find comfort, and the freedom to feel and hurt. The freedom within the bars of my cage allow me to face all that I am ... the good, the bad, and the indifferent is seen from the safety of my cage of solitude. From the inside looking out I can see my faults, and I can see that I have room to grow. I can also see that there is always a need to learn. Things are different now. But the love that I feel surpasses what I could begin to describe. It’s still strong and fills me with quiet wonder. It’s a bit like staring up at the night sky and trying to comprehend just how big it is out there. I am just a speck, incomprehensibly small ... I think that’s what it means to love someone. It's not always the fireworks or excitement, or grasping for security. Love is a profound understanding that there is something more important than ourselves. The magnitude overwhelms me and shakes me to my core. That stays with me. He is with me always. Sometimes it is my struggle against the darkness that has become who is me. And those are my tears falling like soft light trying to wash the dark thoughts away. With light there is darkness ... one cannot exist without the other. To be secure there must be knowledge of what insecurity feels like. To be happy there must be sadness. I am thankful for the moments of peace. I will find my words and I will become stronger, even if only with a whisper I find my voice. |
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6/29/2011 3:12 am |
Your whispers scream volumes. We are here for you when you are ready to leave your cage.
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