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being disobedient....
9/22/2007 5:21 am Last Read: |
Well, as in so many things in my life, I have taken one step forward and two steps back again. The epidural I had last week seemed to be working. The aches and pains in my legs were being reduced. The burning sensation has almost completely gone away with the medication. Unfortunately, that all disappeared Thursday afternoon. Ive only been in the office for four hours since August 18. While I have been able to get my work done from home, there is something to be said for having that face time with my co-workers. Since I seemed to be recovering, I decided to try spending more time sitting as last week progressed. On Monday, I sat at my desk for two hours. No problem! Every day I increased the time, figuring I could get to eight hours and then feel comfortable with going back to the office for a couple of days before going out to Chicago for three or four weeks. On Thursday, things seemed to be going fine. I was careful to not sit for more than thirty minutes at a time. The instructions I had received from the physical therapist was that I needed to walk around for at least 5 minutes before sitting again. Having been through all of this four years ago, I knew to follow those instructions. Unfortunately, with no warning, at five hours of doing this routine, I went into spasms again. The pins and needles feeling in my left calf, ankle and foot went from barely noticeable to almost painful. I started to have pain in the back of my thigh and left buttock. *sigh* I was back to where I had been three weeks ago. After spending most of Thursday night and Friday in tears, I caved in and called the specialist. Im back on Percocet and Valium again. My Lyrica dosage has been doubled. And Im scheduled for a follow-up epidural on Friday. As is usual, Sir came over last night after work. His concern for my condition was quite evident. As He left for work this morning, He was very specific in the instructions I was given. Today, I am to do as little as possible in order to take care of my back. While I am quite gratified by His concern, I now have a serious dilemma facing me. Sir is allergic to cats. As you probably know if you read my blog, I have two. Normally, He has no problem coming here, as I run the sweeper at least once or twice a week and keep the apartment pretty clean. Since the cats sleep with me during the week, I also make certain the sheets on the bed are changed every Friday morning so He will not have to deal with dander on them. The problem? I havent been able to run the sweeper for two weeks, as that is one of the big no-no tasks according to my physical therapist. The pain I had yesterday meant I didnt get the bedding changed. Poor Sir spent the night coughing and having a hard time breathing due to congestion. Im going to be disobedient today. I HAVE to run the sweeper and change the bed linens. It is too painful for me to see Him suffering for something that can be fixed so easily. He had joked with me last week about putting up a posting asking all of you to suggest punishment for transgressions. Since I am intentionally being disobedient, I wont wait for Him to tell me to make this posting. I will also be sending an e-mail to His Domme friend asking for her suggestions. I am intentionally and willfully disobeying His instructions to me this morning. Please suggest an appropriate punishment for my behavior. If Sir wishes, I will let you know what He decided to do. |
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9/22/2007 6:35 am |
i dont know about punishment....but why dont you find a domestic subbie boi to come and do that work for you...make sure your Sir gets to speak to them first (all part of the fun)....and instruct them what to wear.....(preferably nothing and a week of orgasm denial so his cock is nice and erect while he carries out his duties....) could be a win/win/win situation reckon. jh
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 9/22/2007 4:24 pm |
Under the circumstances, there is only one punishment that is appropriate. It is: A loving hug, and warm tears. Bless you dear friend. May you recover fully soon. And may you spend many happy moments free from such agony, and only know the pain of BDSM love.    
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9/22/2007 6:08 pm |
I'd put the cats to work  Well, now that this thing appears to be working again, I'll see ya soon. 
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9/23/2007 3:10 am |
I'm sorry to hear about the medical setbacks... no picnic. How you're going to handle a trip to Chicago, I cannot imagine. Give my blessings to the cats nonetheless. *hugs* (gentle ones)
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9/23/2007 4:06 am |
JanetHoward, welcome to my blog! Strangely enough, I had received an e-mail from a sub boi a couple of weeks ago. Sir and I did jokingly discuss your suggestion, but discarded the thought. He is concerned that I would be too uncomfortable with the situation and it could be too easy for someone to take advantage of me if He wasn't here. Dreamer, thank you, so MUCH, for the warm wishes. There were lots of loving hugs and tears last night when He got home from work. We also talked about this situation all evening. Yes, there is punishment waiting for me. I know what it is and part of my punishment is knowing that it will not happen until I have recovered. *sigh* I think that is as bad as knowing how disappointed He is over my actions.... Golden, welcome to my blog and thank you for your comment! I am using the timer to keep track of the time I am sitting. His punishment is one I am not looking forward to, but I admit to deserving it. I now have a MUCH better understanding of what His objective is in this situation. Frank, I keep trying to convince them that they need to earn their keep! lol For some reason, they keep thinking that means insisting on receiving food and attention from Sir.... How did He win them over to His side so quickly? MS, thank you! The trip to Chicago has now been delayed until I have completed physical therapy. I had hoped the first epidural would work well enough to allow me to function. There wa salways the chance I would need another one, but the specialist was planning on doing it in another four to six weeks rather than this Friday. *sigh* It will get better! I just need to get my head turned around and think those positive thoughts....
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9/23/2007 11:06 am |
Alright Wistful, my beautiful lovely submissive dear, stop. Disobedience at this time will harm you, your Master's job is to keep you from harm. Put the new sheets out for the bed, put the sweeper out to be used and put on your sexiest lingerie you can muster in this situation. Maybe pour a glass of wine for Him, order in His favorite dinner. Serve Him in ways that won't harm you and entertain Him while He does these two simple and quick chores. This way you show your love and service, your concern for His health and suffering, and you do not cause harm to yourself by disobeying, harm that will further keep you two from the usual play that you both enjoy. Your desire to serve Him, to take care of Him is admirable...but your Master is wise on taking the suffering on Himself at this moment. You can find your way to to serve, to relieve His suffering without causing more damage. Please hon, listen to the wise words of your Master, consider a better , more imaginative approach to the situation, and enjoy a speedier recovery. If you want to talk lovely, please feel free to get in touch. i know how hard this is for you.
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9/24/2007 3:35 am |
Sweetest syllista.... I should have chatted with you on Saturday before I had my melt down.... *sigh* There ARE other ways for me to get the house clean and I need to begin to accept them. I think it just got to me so much because I'm mostly house-bound. I can't HELP but see the messes I can't get to. And seeing Him suffer so much just broke me. I won't do this again. When something is bothering me, I will tell Him about it so we can develop a solution that He is happy with. And I PROMISE to not be so stubborn! 
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