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tap, tap, tap....
9/24/2007 7:22 am Last Read: |
He has a way of finding my buttons and then tapping on them. During a conversation, He will find something Im uncomfortable with and just tap on it. Well talk about it for just a moment or two, then He changes the subject. Some time later, maybe a week, maybe three, Hell tap on that button again. Its always the same. A quick tap, talk for just a bit about it, then move on. Im finding that the tap, tap, tap on those topics is having an unexpected effect. Something He had touched on several months ago is now beginning to intrigue me. Its surprising, as it was always something I had thought I could never be interested in. When I asked Him about the method He was using, He just smiled. *grumble* I have to admit that I love the way He puts these thoughts into my mind and then removes the initial visceral reactions. They become topics I can begin to consider rather than just shuddering from the thought and hastily discarding it from my mind. Of course, you know me! I cant be happy with just accepting that Hes found a way to get me to truly consider these topics. I have to understand WHY this is working. Is it because Hes not pushing the thoughts down my throat? Is it the way He just lightly touches on the topic then moves away from it? Could it be the fact that Hes getting me to think of these things in a different light with no pressure? Following on those questions are others. Is this maybe a way for me to overcome some of the things I fear? Would this tapping work to help me deal with edge play? Could it be that being exposed to it more would remove that anxiety I always feel? I admit that Im not completely comfortable with some of the thoughts Im having. But there are some things that are beginning to have an appeal. Things I had always shied away from. Certain activities begin to pop into my mind and I have begun to WANT those experiences. I have begun to look forward to that tap, tap, tap into my mind.... |
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9/24/2007 5:15 pm |
Brilliant! Plant the seed and let it grow...   
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9/25/2007 3:25 am |
Dreamer, He is planting a garden!  But I'm thrilled to let it bloom and enjoy the fruits of His labors....
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9/26/2007 6:34 pm |
i think he is doing a marvelous job of working through some of your fears. Way to go! It seems to me that your explanation makes complete sense. By slowly chiseling rather than jackhammering, he is getting a much more favorable response from you.
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9/27/2007 4:07 am |
Slavekat, He is so devious at times! lol But I'm finding so many things more interesting than I ever could have thought. There are some activities I can actually think about now instead of just saying "no" right off the bat. It's interesting, that's for sure!
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