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everything in slow motion....
9/27/2007 11:12 am Last Read: |
I dont know why Im having such a struggle today. It feels as thought it takes a tremendous effort to do anything. The medications are making me dizzy, so walking across the room means looking like Ive had a few too many drinks. By the end of the day, Ill probably have a dozen bruises on my legs that Ill have no memory of getting! Im just exhausted. Every time I lie down, its a struggle to work instead of falling asleep. Theres so much work to get done, and Im falling further and further behind.... Of course, Im getting more and more anxious about tomorrow. The procedure is scheduled for tomorrow afternoon, so I get to stress about it all day. *sigh* I keep trying to stay positive about it, but Im dreading the pain. This time, I decided to go ahead and stay drugged until after Im home. Maybe thats part of my problem. Im so medicated that I just cant function. Talking with Sir last night, we came to the conclusion that trying to tough it out didnt work last time, so I need to try something different this time. I hate being so cranky like this. Its depressing. I feel like Im standing beside myself and seeing a person I really dont like. When will this hell end? He gave me a surprise visit by coming over the other night. It is still putting a smile on my face today. Ill see Him tomorrow, so all should be right in my world.... Have I mentioned that, on top of everything else, Im having a really bad hair day? |
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9/27/2007 12:49 pm |
"Trying something different this time", sounds about right to me. Bruises on your legs and a bad hair day?? And then this out of body experience you're having? What's a girl to do??? This too will pass. All of it. Imagine: just being yourself once again, med-free; going out to dinner and being full of energy. That day, dear lady, is coming. *with careful hugs and healing energies*
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9/27/2007 4:45 pm |
Your last comment actually made me choke with laughter. Thank you! Hope you get better very soon.
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9/27/2007 4:53 pm |
You should only be concerned about healing. Put this behind you once and for all and everything will be okay.   
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9/27/2007 6:18 pm |
I will be thinking positive thoughts for you tomorrow, and can only hope for happiness and health for you, oh yeah, and better hair. Pet 
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9/28/2007 6:03 am |
MS, thank you, so much, for your kind words! I keep holding onto the thought that I will be myself again. I just wish it would be soon, as I'm NOT liking the person I am right now.... Kat, I gotta tell you.... I'm SO glad He wasn't around yesterday. It was kind of like Madeline Kahn's hair in Son of Frankenstein... I scared myself! lol Dreamer, the good thing about the drugs is that I'm finally feeling no pain. The bad thing is that I'm not able to think. Kind of a dilemma I wish I wasn't dealing with!  Thank you, Pet! My vanity is hoping the better hair shows up today so that He doesn't see me at my worst...  Thank you, Yevonne! I truly appreciate you warm wishes!
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