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how did that happen?
12/10/2005 6:23 am Last Read: |
Ive been thinking about the events that have happened at work and have come to a major realization. Although Ive always viewed my work persona as demanding, assertive and aggressive, I had a revelation this morning. I have become a slave to my job. All of my actions are based upon pleasing my boss and on meeting his expectations. I would not be such a hard ass if I didnt need to enforce his requirements. The motivating factor for me is to bring satisfaction to him. (Ringing any bells, here?) I feel a need to support his endeavors, I find gratification in anticipating his needs, and I will give up tremendous chunks of my own time in order to meet his deadlines. Im reviewing the commonalities between my boss and my Master. They both listen to my opinions and value them. They both treat me with respect. They both communicate with me honestly. They both have taken the time to show me how they think and have taught me much. They both offer challenges that keep me interested and force me to think. They both reward me when my performance meets their expectations. How did this happen? How in the world did I get to this point? Now I have to wonder if part of my frustration with our new owners is due to the diminishment of my boss role. (OK. Thats not all of the problem! I know that part of it is due to the idiots who are making commitments on my behalf without speaking to me first, douche bags who are taking actions that create days of work for me, and our old owners giving out incorrect information that takes me weeks to track down.) A slave cannot serve two masters. I know that very well. Honestly, if push came to shove, there is no question which Master would prevail. Im a bit troubled to recognize that Ive become such a slave to my career, though. Is it just an innate behavior that I dont see? Many more thoughts to ponder.... |
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