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Funeral song in place... Ok so as most of you know by now...I have been diagnosed with PTSD and am one of the lucky ones who has a framed letter from the British Army admitting total blame which is a rare thing indeed...I am doing okay..better than most...but knowing the *nature of this beast* it still worries me that one say it will overcome me...come for me with vengeance and even this Warrior Princess won't stand a chance...So admin needed to be put in place..just in case..and an attorney now has my official funeral needs and wants under lock and key in his filing cabinet...THIS was always going to be the song i wanted played at my funeral...the words are uncannily ME...the original was sung by Charles Aznavour...but i adore the version by Elvis Costello...which he sings on the sountrack to the movie Notting Hill starring Julia Roberts and Hugh Grant....So here are the lyrics... She.... May be the face I can't forget A trace of pleasure or regret May be my treasure or the price i have to pay She may be the song that summer sings May be the chill that autumn brings May be a hundred different things Within the measure of a day. She.... May be the beauty or the beast May be the famine or the feast May turn each day into a heaven or a hell She may be the mirror of my dreams A smile reflected in a stream She may not be what she may seem Inside her shell. She... Who seems so happy in a crowd Whose eyes can be so private and so proud No one's allowed to see them.. when they cry She may be the love that cannot hope to last May come to me from shadows in the past That I'll remember til the day i die. She... May be the reason I survive The why and wherefore I'm alive The one I'll care for through the rough and ready years Me, I'll take her laughter and her tears And make them ALL my souvenirs For where she goes I've got to be The meaning of my life is.......... SHE. *************************************************************** |
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Let's hope that by the time you need it, the format its recorded on has long since been obsolete. I very much hope that the Army will be giving you all the support you need and deserve or that the NHS will rise to its usual standard in case of need. Remember, you are not alone.
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I love that song You better not have it played for suggested purposes for a very long time young lady. I recently wrote my will but haven't got as far as planning my funeral (apart from knowing that I want to be cremated as I don't want warms to eat me) but I may well steel your song idea x
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If there is a god...i think you really should give me a fuckin BREAK now...i have had MORE than my fair share ffs lol
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R.I.P My beautiful special girl Andrea who passed away July 20th 2015 aged 51
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I actually do believe that you will meet her again. But what would Andrea want? She would want you to continue living. Live your life for her too. Experience life with its ups and downs, have fun and dance with life. One day you two will then have a lot more to talk about. There's no rush. She will be waiting and cheering for you. In the recent times there were in particular two occasions when I felt close to my dear friend who passed in February and my beloved granddad. I could sense them. I was not scared but I also knew they wouldn't want me to join them quite yet. Part of me wanted to feel the wind on my face, I had a real desire to be in nature and get to the beach but I was too poorly, and just go with it. But I knew I had far too many memories to make still.
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Yes tinkerfun...i wholeheartedly agree,,,i do still feel her around me....when she first passed i couldn't bare to take her off my Facebook frends list,,,we chatted on there every night...making plans for the following day etc....then something strange started happening...every time i would be lying on the sofa with my laptop next to me on a side table...i would become overwhelmed by her loss...the tears were uncontrollable...but then OMG...next to her name in the friendlist her little dot which tells people if you are online or not,,,would turn green as *online*....this happened a few times...but only at the times i was distressed and inconsolable..so i asked her 2 children if they were using her profile...on there to update the various charity events they were organising to raise money for cancer research...and they BOTH said that they had no idea what her password was so hadnt once accessed her facebook since she passed away...and as soon as i would become calm and collected and told myself out loud *Cummon Heidi-Lou...Get a GRIP woman*....her online green dot went black (offline) again...after ruling out ALL other possibilities...i truly believe she was giving me a sign to STOP feeling the sadness that consumed me...and to just *get on with life*
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