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Stories in Chapters - and Any Other Missives that Might Come to Mind

A Brief Vision Nov 4, 2008 11:53 am
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What I picture is Me sitting at the edge of the bed, naked, and you on your knees, between My legs, at least topless. I bend over and kiss you warmly, deeply, than hard. My hands, one in your hair, the other caressing, squeezing, rubbing, even gripping one of your breasts - hard. Soon I transition that hand in your hair to a grip. One that's used to direct your pretty face to My hard cock and I direct you to kiss and suck it. Soon, My hand is directing, guiding you along My cock. I tell you what a good girl you are and how wonderful it feels. Then My grip gets a bit more insistent and pushes you down on My cock harshly, the swollen cockhead reaching the back of your mouth and beyond. Managing your gags and any discomfort with soothing words of coaching and encouragement, moving you off and back on as necessary, I use your mouth to wetly fuck the length of My cock. After a moment or two, I can take the denial no more and MUST have your tits in My hands. I pull you up by your hair, pulling you forward and take your breasts in My hands. I quickly press them around My slippery, wet, throbbing cock. Pulling them around by their nipples. Soon I'm using them much as I did your loving mouth. My legs shiver, My groans and moans plain, exclaiming how wonderful you feel.
Back and forth, mouth to tits, to mouth again... then back to your tits again. Unsure exactly where I'd like to cum most, but thinking hard about pressing you all the way down My cock and it erupting in spasms of cum-shooting bliss down your throat as you swallow and wriggle...

Sweaty and panting, pulling you eventually off My cock, the same warm kiss upon your lips, My tongue searching for yours and My own taste in your mouth ...

Tell Me. Does that scene appeal to you? Would you change it? If so, how?
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Predator Doms Jun 28, 2007 11:48 am
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I've heard, yet again, from another new submissive here, about meeting a "Dom" and wanting to grant Him their submission for their first time. And, as before, He didn't respect her limits.

D/s is about two people respecting each other. Sure, one is dominant and the other submissive, but a submissive is NOT just a piece of meat. A submissive is a human being and needs to be respected as one. When she says no hitting, no pain and no anal - she fucking MEANS it and that needs to be respected. Even when she's done something the Dom doesn't like he does NOT have permission to cross her limits as part of her punishment.

Control is not, inherently sadism. If a sub says no and there has been no conversation about other safe words with CLEAR understanding, then, it means NO. Back the fuck off.

It's difficult enough to engender trust in this world, let alone in this lifestyle and on an internet "hook-up" site. Predators like these scare submissives away, never to return, and hurt their ability to deal with who they are.

Personally, I would like to see some kind of descreet feedback mechanism so these predators can be called out and identified for who they are - and who they aren't. I know it's impossible, but I wish something could be done.

Hiding behind the mask of a helpful dominant and being a self-centered, sadistic, abusing piece of shit should be policeable and come to an end.
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Deep Throat Help May 15, 2007 12:20 pm
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I encountered a thread in a group where a woman asked for advice on how to learn to deep throat. You'll usually hear a few answers on this, but I compiled mine, off-the-cuff, in response to the post.

I've received some good feedback on it so I've decided to include it in my blog. Feel free to comment as you wish:

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It is about practice, certainly. But some are more quickly inclined to be successful than others - just the way it is. So be prepared to be patient. *Smile*

If the cock in your life is informed and willing to be patient, great. However, I would suggest finding a toy cock - jelly preferred in that it's more yielding to bends and tight confines - that is of cock size or just under. The length is what we're more worried about at first, not the girth.

Some exercises to stretch your jaws/mouth a bit before you start is a good idea. Opening your mouth as wide as possible and holding it for a count of three then relaxing and repeating a good 5-6 times is a great start.

From there, practice extending your tongue as far as possible. Yes, the tip should stick out from your mouth. Once out there concentrate on the BACK of your tongue - the part where your mouth starts to curve downward into your throat. Focus on trying to flatten and lower that part of your tongue. Once you've become somewhat conscious of that you're ready for the prop. *Wink*

Open, extend, flatten the back of your tongue, and slowly slide the head of the (toy) cock along your tongue to the back of your throat. When it gets close to the back of your mouth take a partial breath (or a whole breath and exhale half), then press it fully to the back. What's important here is to react when you feel a gag start. When the gag starts, immediately swallow. Yes, swallow around that cock - WHILE still pressing it. Swallow, swallow, swallow and, if your throat is capable or practiced enough it will press into your throat. Then pull it out.

Don't be discouraged if it won't seem to go or if the gag is tough to get past. Practice. Practice and more practice will eventually make this work. Follow the procedure above and you'll get it - eventually, if not immediately. *Grin*

The above may seem a bit simple, but it is the basics that work. I've helped a number of women remotely over the years in achieving this. It CAN be done. I would be happy to answer any other questions or more directly help someone as I have others in the past. Just contact me here. I pay so that standard members can send me mail without it counting against their daily limit.

Good luck. If it's something you REALLY want, don't give up. Even find help. You've made some of that first step - congratulations!

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Thoughts on Intimacy Jan 4, 2007 5:57 pm
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*He extends a fingertip delicately to her chin*

"Intimacy is something to be shared. The environment shapes our opinions of how private and secure that may or may not need to be."

"Trust with O/one, is what is important. And to what all that trust has to extend is shaped by O/our own environments as well."

"Passion and intimacy are, by design, to be shared. Depriving O/ourselves does nothing but harm ourselves. Sharing is what truly makes it mindblowing, satisfying, and regenerative to O/our souls."

"I, for O/one, have to find the time and place and one to share it with. I've made a decision to accept nothing less. Finding one to accept long-term is ruled by what My environment has taught Me is acceptable."

"A good heart and complementary passion, a desire to please, and a willingness to discover, are all that are truly needed."

*He traces His fingertip along her bottom lip, eyes following the yielding of the tender flesh as it travels so slowly across*

"Sooner or later, what O/our environment has taught us and what W/we are able to find once W/we are willing to put ourselves out there, intersect. Timing."
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Anal Sex Nov 26, 2006 4:23 am
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There was a thread in a local group (if you're not looking over the groups available in your area here you're really missing out!) asking how to prep for anal sex. And, as I'm prone to do, I let fly alot about my opinion and experience on the topic.

Not so much of it was about prep, but it did relate my first experiences. I thought I'd share in case they give anyone any insights as to their own perspecitives and/or desires.

It's a nerve-wracking concept, this anal sex. And I think there are many out there that could or could have enjoyed it. I think some first experiences have ruined it for some that could otherwise really enjoy it. On the other side of that coin are those experiences I've heard of that weren't so gentle and considerate but ... were very well received as well.

To each their own, eh? *Laugh*

Anyway, I thought I'd edit and share my input on prepping for anal sex which was started by a curious woman. There had been input on using alot of lube and the woman being truly relaxed and willing:

If you have a like-minded partner interested in a journey with that destination it's a good thing because I recommend patience. Lots of it. Months if necessary.

Willingness is an interesting word. I'd like to think there's trust involved there.

Just to find out if you're likely to enjoy that penetration you might have your partner give you some nice, long, rewarding oral and massage that spot or even attempt to insert a pinkie - there should be plenty of natural lube for that by then, anyway. If it's a mindbending orgasm as a result I suggest you look a little more deeply into full penetration.

I spent months with my ex-wife working up to it and what finally turned the corner was that she had resolved, finally, that she was going to relax and cut loose. We'd spent so much time and effort only for it to seem there's no way it could really happen because she seemed so uncomfortable with much more than just the head past that outer ring. Then that one day - bang. We were both shocked and very pleased we were able to get past it.

It became a very regular thing - her hardest, most intense orgasms. And, quite honestly, it was slow, gentle, and sometimes quite quick.

She was very clit-centered so everything was done with that spot being stimulated. If she was tightening up or seemed to react poorly to a bit more pressure I spent more time on her clit. Sooner or later it would come together.

Patience, don't give up, remind her to relax, stimulate her the way she likes it best to help her mind forget what's happening or about to happen. Then she'll learn how to take it.

There are those that will never enjoy it. Some have mental blocks - conscious or subconscious. Others, I believe, never are able to feel any real stimulation.

A slow, methodical, considerate, reactive approach was key for us. The rewards were ... some of the very best.

Also, keep in mind, for many men, the idea/stigma is something they can't overcome or overcome well either. Guilt afterwards can be awful. I mean, outrageous pleasure but regret and guilt over how it was achieved ...

Trust and willingness must, sooner or later, be achievable at both the conscious and subconscious level ...

Oh, and by the way, I knew and know of NO prep she ever really did ... *Shrugs*

Oh, and one more thing ... *Laugh*

We really didn't use any extra lube other than her natural and, sooner or later, just my precum. But in the right situation I make LOTS of it ...

I hope this helps someone somewhere ...
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Back Off, Gentlemen Sep 24, 2006 3:33 pm
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Yet another woman chased off by the harsh, violent, vulgar mail messages from male members.

I've often wondered what kind of crap they receive. I know My mail messages aren't like that - certainly without knowing someone a bit. Perhaps that's one of the reasons mail may be so rarely replied to and accounts disappear from here so quickly.

Back off, G/gentlemen - and I find Myself using the term loosely.
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BDSM to Me Jul 4, 2006 5:01 am
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Well, this is a huge topic, but the focus here is for Me to express My perspective and personal place in the BDSM world - more specifically as it relates to sex, not the lifestyle as a whole.

It seems many people have many ideas of what it all means. And, while it does cover alot of ground, to Me it means something a bit more specific.

I came face to face with it many years ago online - chasing some girl to a chatsite *Laugh*. I stuck around because the form and function of the site was good, but moreover because sex was right out there as a topic. To be discussed openly or privately and the topics were many and varied.

Sure I was there to get some visceral and vicarious thrills ... but what it seemed it advanced was against what I was taught and told growing up. I've always been the consummate gentleman. From holding the door to respecting the word "no" completely. Yes, always the nice guy. And here men were to be ... aggressive, assertive, and in control - at least the Dominant men (of course, women can be Dominant as well, so forgive my presenting this from an all-male perspective as it is my perspective *Smiles*). Oftentimes they were rude, degrading, openly abusive. This was all shocking and made Me very uncomfortable - let alone very angry that they'd behave that way and treat a woman so.

It's taken many years and alot of trying things on, if you will, in a virtual world. But I've come to understand it doesn't have to be that way. I've also come to understand that some crave, even need some of the worst kind of treatment. But that's not Me. Nor will it ever be, I don't believe.

Yes, it's about being in control. But that ultimate respect of her is still there. I can be gentle and be Dominant. I can direct and be in charge without being utterly abusive.

I've found my "limits" continue to stretch. Things I didn't think I'd like now I'm much more curious about if not ... turned on by. But what it's all about to Me, also, is ultimately turning her on. Driving her nuts with desire, arousal, and ultimate satisfaction.

Bondage is simply the means to the end of keeping her ... under My use and intentions. For instance toys ... spanking if it's mutually agreeable, wax play, crop, flogger - again, if agreeable. And these activities needn't all even happen in order for it to be a great time for all. It's very unique to the Dominant and the submissive. They need to find some common, stimulating ground to work from.

The horror stories of what is essentially ... bother Me greatly. A real man doesn't need that nor get enjoyment from that. Now if both agree then ... go for it, I suppose. It may not be what some of us want to see or know about but consenting adults behind closed doors, right?

Dominance is in a personality or it isn't. I found out Mine was there, and natural, and it actually agreed with what I'd become as a male adult. It just needed, and still needs wings.

It all begins with trust and communications. One Dominant's style may not agree with another submissive's style. There should be no judging either way. But respect is utmost.

Utmost.
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Bondage model Needed Jun 13, 2006 5:38 am
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Just getting started with this and it really needs to be practiced with a female body rather than just the mind. *Laughs*

I'm not looking for a perfect body or anything just a willingness and a sprinkle of desire - I'd greatly prefer that she enjoyed the work.

No overtly sexual contact or activity actually required. That would be between the P/parties involved but I will make no assumptions once she's vulnerable. I understand I'm being trusted and I refuse to abuse that.

This is beginner stuff, no suspension or dangerous configurations. No will mean no. I have some cuffs and rope fit for the job. Special requests and/or equipment encouraged.

Availability is very important as My time is mostly after 9pm at night. A location is important as well. I would have to make some arrangements so if she can do that it would be a plus.

Please, any questions or "applications" please post here or Mail Me.
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Ghost Town Jun 11, 2006 1:48 pm
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... this place has become. Almost NOBODY female from closer than Chicago.

I won't be renewing. Moving content to Adult FriendFinder as it doesn't make sense to have both. Perhaps some day there will be something actually happening here.

Peace.
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The Agreement Jan 17, 2006 8:44 pm
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... it was your idea. That's not stated to blame, more as ironic fact. I quickly agreed without seeing all the wisdom in it.

The terms included "Master" and "slut" and words like "honor", "precious", "Yours", and "Mine". The conditions were simple. No relationship changes on E/either side.

And W/we became U/us. The opening of My eyes was a revelation of geometric proportions. I had to discount most of it at first just so I could deal with it in small chunks over time. My understanding was as a child. An inestimable thanks for the time W/we had. For I needed that time in order to come to more full understanding let alone comfort in Ownership.

The beauty, the joy, the introspection, the lust, the honor, the service, the awe.

But things did change. Not the terms, but conditions were met. W/we stood in the light of scrutiny and waivered. W/we couldn't. So W/we remained U/us.

Soon - too soon - the reason for the agreement became clear. This Master you chose to serve because He was kind and gentle yet Dominant let you down. He didn't enforce the rules. Yet, over time, with the changed conditions, He couldn't be who He had been anymore. And He saw her becoming less of whom she had been.

Precious time, precious opportunity presented itself and W/we grabbed it. Time stood still. The stars danced around U/us. All the power, all the vulnerability condensed in one place, one time, one awestruck moment that defies true description.

The gratitude is unending. The love overflowing. And now the healing. For the loss is deeply wounding.

Habits die hard. The call here, the call there. Those times of day that were often O/ours come often now with a darkness. As surely as that old desire to strike up a cigarette with a drink, after a meal, after rolling the window down in the car, after writhing in love and lust, it comes. Reaching for the phone on any drive or errand, expectantly logging in for e-mail, launching that messenger hoping for a glimpse, all are habits which will never entirely be removed from the conscious nor subconscious.

Die agreement! Die a hideous, murderous death. And thank you for being there to be honored.

I will miss you and be grateful, both, for the rest of My life.
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