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Lilith's Laughter

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Basics
Posted:Dec 26, 2023 6:54 am
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 9:42 am
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As 2023 draws to a close and it's been a long while since I posted I believe it's time for a little update, or at least to let the 'hoards' know the simple things.

1 - Female
2 - Age 34
3 - Located in the cesspit that is south London, just outside Croydon for those who want something a little more specific
4 - Bisexual, probably pansexual in today's linguistic wokeness
5 - Single
6 - I honestly don't care who or what someone is. If you're a dick, be a dick, just don't expect me to entertain you
7 - People around me have three things in common, they're honest, they have an open mind and they're down to earth
8 - I don't do FaceTime or Teams or Zoom or Skype any video calls at all. Ever. So don't ask
9 - One chance is given and that's all
10 - Standard member, limited connectivity, limited messages so take the first step or miss out
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Holiday
Posted:May 18, 2018 2:32 pm
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 9:42 am
90364 Views

Away on holiday, catch you lovelies later
Bon voyage
Jealous!
0 Comments , 6 votes
Playground
Posted:May 15, 2018 11:48 am
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 9:42 am
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Sometimes things happen without rhyme or reason, they can simply occur due to a confluence of conditions which make coincidence seem like fate or destiny to those spiritually inclined, those who believe that everything happens for a reason because it has been destined to be so through the guidance of an omnipotent being.

Guidance comes in thousands of different shapes, sizes or forms, no one of them any more reliable than another with regards to providing accurate aide in times of need, whatever works for one person may not work for another or vice versa, there are as many ways to be as there are not to be, there are as many ways to be happy as to be sad, joyous as bereft, full of love and full of hate, it makes little difference where the beginning of it came from when someone is experiencing it - The times when people need help are the times when they themselves can't discern what their own emotions are saying, when something is too large for them to process within their narrow understanding of it another person provides the space for them to see just what is being said to them, what it is that their own self is saying when their internal voice is drowned out by the noises of thought processes and their own inability to reason them into silence.

Sometimes it can feel like there is no end to the reasoning inside of someone's mind, that no matter what they decide or what emotional state they're in, that their mind will always look to someone else for guidance and understanding less they be perpetually confounded by the dichotomy of a situation diametrically opposed to their state of being, a state less than ordinary for their abilities to comprehend or digest - Much like their stomach, their mind needs to digest the emotions that are fed to it on a daily basis, usually when the person enters REM sleep these thoughts, concepts, situations or emotions are played out through the voices, individuals and places that are understood or known to the individual, creating a falsehood whereby knowledge can be gained or difficulties understood.

Dreaming allows the brain to do its best work, it allows the mind to conquer what the conscious mind can't, it allows the mind to configure emotions into understandable bite size pieces which don't carry the same weight for the individual when awake, they are the easiest way for the unfamiliar to become the familiar and the dichotomy of perpetual reasoning with unstable knowledge to balance itself out into a comfortable equilibrium - The brain can't create a face, AI has the ability to create but the human brain draws from what is known and seen effectively copy pasting familiar faces into familiar scenes to process unfamiliar situations for the purpose of understanding on a deeper level.

Without this time to process what's happening in a way that is less fraught with unhelpful emotions, people wouldn't be able to make half of the decisions that they indeed do make, rightly or wrongly, they would be stuck in an ever increasing loop of misinformed knowledge with no way to stop themselves
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NG Tubes
Posted:May 12, 2018 12:02 pm
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 9:42 am
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How many of you have used NG Tubes during play my lovelies
Yep
Nope
1 comment , 6 votes
Filters
Posted:May 9, 2018 10:56 am
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 9:42 am
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One of the rudest inventions ever to grace the face of the planet simultaneously manages to pander to the whims of the code pendant as well as trigger the socially anxious in one fell swoop.

Those who crave the attention of others have built businesses on the back of their need to be recognised, to be told repeatedly just how beautiful or healthy or skillfully they are on an hourly basis, sitting and watching the counter tick higher and higher fuelling their narcissism to new levels with each zero that attaches itself to their latest post - Hours upon hours of every day is given over to getting the right shot, making the right pose, selling themselves like cattle for the likes and votes of people who don't have the confidence to do that themselves.

These people provide just the right amount of voyeurism for those wanting to live vicariously through others while maintaining a lifestyle that provides comfort instead of danger, change or discomfort, they can be seen to be included in a lifestyle that is out of their element, to be linked to that person however tangentially is to be part of something, an inclusion to a world where dichotomy riding celebrities have their needs catered for by those who lack the necessary time or money to become the next generation - Like anything disposable they soon fall victim to their own fan bases, families of like minded individuals who strive to uphold their leaders doctrine as if acolytes for cannon, one wrong move and they find themselves replaced by the newest, freshest face on the scene with the latest gimmick to sell more than they can.

A world devoted to the aesthetically minded, using whatever tools they can to create communities which turn like rabid dogs upon their leader without a second thought is no easy way to live, thousands of people going from praising every single action or word to vilifing them in the same breath causes their entire world to crumble from beneath them - A foundation based upon images or 140 characters alone will not make for a solid basis of worth, demeaning their every intent from the moment they start to the moment they stop their lives are consumed by this seemingly vacuous way of being.

Soon enough taking breaks from what made them is the only way that they can continue being that person, before privacy was something happily cast aside to gain a rapport and create a sense of familiarity but after a while the pressure to maintain that level of familiarity starts to take effect, no longer is it one person connecting with a few like minded individuals, its now a leader and a community, this instills an anxiety which only fuels their already shaky self confidence - Before long breaks are needed, time away is needed, being apart from those who's support, time, money and effort made them who they are is the only way that they can continue to be that same person, each action being cross examined for fault leaves a sense of criminal action in everything they do.

The fall of a leader of such voracious communities is nothing new to anyone who knows of them, fan bases are notorious for turning on their idols and the lives they made based on their careers soon become too unstable to ever be viable once more, leaving no other option but to retire with whatever little grace is left.
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Nullify
Posted:May 6, 2018 7:57 am
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 9:42 am
91102 Views

How many of you have nullification fantasies my lovelies
Yep
Nope
0 Comments , 5 votes
Next
Posted:May 3, 2018 12:42 pm
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 9:42 am
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People spend their lives waiting.

Waiting for buses, waiting for appointments, waiting for jobs, waiting for parcels, waiting in line, waiting for good news or bad - There never seems to be anything other than waiting for something to happen, no matter what it is or how well someone organises their life they end up spending time waiting and wondering, the only time when the brain truly starts to work for itself instead of parroting off repetitive actions its used to.

Having that time to think means that the brain can, for once, start to really come alive, it can delve into all of those thoughts that usually get pushed back into the memory for a better time or a better place to decide if they're worth the effort of exploring or if they're something that will only make life more difficult, then and only then can someone really make decisions at a time when they have nothing to do but wait.

Reflection is necessary for growth, no one really knows where they're going or what they're going to be doing in four or fourteen years from now with even the most dedicated or ambitious person having to alter their plans because of X, Y or Z and to refuse to alter plans purely on the basis of stubbornness is a futile task indeed, sometimes things happen in life and all of those carefully laid plans go straight out of the window without so much as a bye or leave, refusing to accept that means more harm than good when people try to stick to what was instead of what is - There's no shame in admitting that something went wrong, there's no embarrassment in saying that something didn't work out, there's no need to feel guilty that the road walked isn't the one that's wanted, people change daily and expecting them to stay the same when life throws curveballs without warning is just the perfect setting for disappointment.

Sometimes it's better to simply sit down and think.

Think about possibilities, think about dreams, hopes, aspirations, needs, wants or fears, it gives the brain the time it needs to process, to process where that person is in their life, where they want to go, who they want to be, what they want to do and what they hope to end up, denying themselves that time means that they just get bogged down in parroting the repetition of life without actually participating in it - Being a spectator in life isn't wrong but it's not exactly right either, by arbitrary standards anyway, it's just something that happens to people who prefer not to be in the spotlight, for those who take pleasure in watching the achievements of others rather than striving for those achievements themselves, nothing is wrong with that at all but it means that they don't have the gratuitous validation that 'successful' have heaped upon them even though their own achievements are just as worthy of praise.

Taking time to stop and think, to decide on something or to choose not to do something is being present in a way that will make the brain a lot happier than it would normally be
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BD Toys
Posted:Apr 30, 2018 9:39 am
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 9:42 am
91645 Views

How many of you have Bad Dragon toys my lovelies
Yep
Nope
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Jungle
Posted:Apr 27, 2018 10:44 am
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 9:42 am
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Feeling cornered is a sensation that takes human beings straight back to their primal beginnings when predation from larger creatures more powerful than themselves were a daily risk to lives no matter how many grouped together - With nowhere to hide from these creatures a deep, indescribable fear infiltrated every aspect of their lives and ruled many of their decisions, making it impossible for them to flourish to the extent they do now.

Modern man has done away with a vast swathe of these creatures through technological evolution, doing what human beings do best in creating more and more ways to end the lives of that which scares them or that which they don't understand, hunting huge sections of ecosystems into extinction as a way of showing superiority over those same creatures which once hunted them - Altering the face of the planet is what human beings do best, being able to lord it over animals, flora and fauna in a matter utterly vacuous to any real semblance of meaning is what makes human beings most proud of themselves.

Human beings have hunted so many of their primal foes into submission that for the better part of their evolved history they have turned on themselves, waging wars over the most mundane of differences between each other for no reason other than to feel superior, excuses and validation of money, land or honour have been toted for millenia as 'good reasons' to develop specialised methods of wiping entire communities off the face of the planet without reproach - No one questions the validation of exterminating a group of people in the same way they question exterminating an entire species of creature, a macabre categorisation takes place and certain lives are preserved over others for utterly archaic reasonings.

There are still those things during the dark that makes human beings experience fear in a way that they haven't since they learned how to bully others into submission, the one enemy of human beings is still and aways will be other human beings - The one thing they cannot escape from is the desire to subjugate one another so they never end up in the same position as all of the creatures that they have wiped off the face of the planet, for their own self preservation they are prepared to commit genocide on scales never seen before and only perpetuating the need to take it to the next level when a new 'threat' is discovered.

The only threat that human beings understand is one that they themselves started and that they continue to perpetuate with anachronistic rhetoric devised to do nothing but exploit differences
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Trampling
Posted:Apr 24, 2018 12:10 pm
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 9:42 am
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How many of you enjoy trampling my lovelies
Yep
Nope
0 Comments , 5 votes

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