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Oh, James...this is why fame sucks....
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Mar 19, 2005 3:56 am
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If you google James Hunter and Mollena, my name, you will find the source of today's sobbing fit...it would seem that the song that my former lover wrote about me is not on not just his second CD but also his third CD...
The one that his record company hopes will be a smash hit here in the US.
Which will make me miserable.
All you who think having a song written about you is a Beautiful Romantic thing...lemmie tell you....make NO assumptions about what constitutes romance.
Because this man, this amazing musician and songwriter, the One who awakened my submissive energy like none other, and who wrote a gorgeous song about me, is no longer mine, And wow, does that hurt. And now, the pain is immortalized for any and every fan of his to snog to for time immemorial.
Great.
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Georgeous woman....
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Mar 19, 2005 3:34 am
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I was, in my buzzed state, logging in to the chat feature here, thinking I might find a way to amuse myself. Within 60 seconds of my logging in, trying to get my bearings, I got a message from someone what simply said too bad and I replied, Allright, your plaint could apply to many things, our distance, your personal preferences, or mine
what do you mean? and she replied, That you are not submissive and this is something I get alla time. People look at me, I have no idea what about my photo is un-submissive, but whatever. Then again, I realized that my selection on sexual preference excludes females. Which is stupid, because I am bisexual, have had gratifying relationships with women and CERTAINLY enjoy playing with women. SO, I then went to my profile to correct that error. Who knows
.what was I thinking??
I hope that the women I was chatting with gets back to me. Shes gorgeous
even though she is not that close to me, one never knows
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Preview night, and the magic of mudras....
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Mar 19, 2005 2:00 am
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....so, I play a god in my show, as I think I mentioned. ALL of us gods are supposed to have stylized iconographic gestures that are non-naturalistic and indicative of our otherworldly status. Yeah. Go try to play that.
I finally settled on using a combination of Balinese dance, Hula, Indian mudras and Egyptian tomb painting poses for my character. ALL of these being pretty fluid and not necessarily registering, but (hopefully) giving the general impression of SOMETING that looks like a statue or painting youve seen at some point.
How gratified was I when, post-show, one of our faithful Crowded Fire stalkers / fans came up to me at the bar and was effusive about my neck, foot and hand posturing, saying is was so evocative of Balinese temple dancing as well as some Indian stuff in there for good measure...I was ELATED. Not only that we have an audience who are so literate in their capacity to ... um... what is the word... extrapolate...those references.
I was in a lot of pain by the end of act II, and act III was difficult. Thankfully, it is OK that I am cranky by then, character-wise. I don't wanna give too much away, because I know at least two people who read my blog who are gonna see the show, and I am anti-spoiler. If you wanna find out about the show, I am sure that by looking up my theater company, which is Crowded Fire, you can figure it out. I already have a pervert contingent coming to the show. And there are a couple of scenes that will melt the heart / pants of the kinky crowd, no doubt. That is part of my theater company's mission, especially in light of our producing my solo show on kink 3 times in the past 5 years. w00t!
OK, I am drunk and need to go whack off and go to bed. Fewer things are as depressing as performing brilliantly, getting all sorts of adulation, and then coming home alone. But that is what the porn and kitties are for: the porn helps one get off, the kitties help me to go to sleep.
xoxo
~Mollena
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the Fiona Apple secret release...
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Mar 18, 2005 2:11 am
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....one of my favourite artistes, Fiona Apple, had her album shelved by Sony. (boo!! Hiss!! Suckage!!!!)
It is,however,widely available online,(in your FACE, Sony bastards!!) because some Brave Soul(s) leaked it and there are dozens of sites mirroring the album.
I suggest you google it and her and listen...fucking amazing.
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Ooo, yes, the costume issue....
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Mar 18, 2005 1:19 am
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....our poor costume design intern / assistant stayed up most of the night and got my corset into presentable shape. Poor creature...she'll be spending most of tonight and much or tomorrow finishing it.
She'll be getting a special opening night giftie from me.
Although I am thinking that the costume designer is NOT going to be on the list of most favored nations after the trauma we experienced...oy vey.
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Overheard on the BART
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Mar 18, 2005 1:16 am
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These drunk ass kids were having a loud debate, and I hobbled behind them to catch the gist.
The one guy turns to his friend and says "OK, so Fucking JEWS...FOR...JESUS?!?! What the motherfuck...I mean, OK, why don't you just be a fucking Christian and shut the fuck up?!?!"
Then the other guy replies
"Yeah, yeah....a Jew for Jesus is like a guy being a faggot for heterosexuality."
And the girl says, "So, whacha got against straight people?!?!"
And the second guy says "Nothing. Nothing at all, certainly not my dick. That is why I am, like, a faggot. And not like a fucking JEW. FOR. Jesus."
God, I love San Franfreakingcisco.
xoxo
~Mollena
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DRAMA, thy name is...um...drama.
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Mar 17, 2005 1:24 pm
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It is not unusual for our costume designer to have some "issues" with our shows. She is, always has been, the type of designer who designs stuff and gives it to someone else to implement. Or, she does your fairly standard "pull costumes from the huge collection at a major theater" type of person. So, when I heard that she was going to be building costumes for the show, almost all of them, I cringed. But hey, due to the company politics, there was little other choice.
So, why am I sitting here, 30.5 hours away from opening, about to have to go shop and try to cobble together some sort of costume, because she has woefully failed to complete my corset top?
Ugh. I wish ... well, hindsight is fine. Now I have to gimp my ass around town and try to save myself from looking stupid on stage.
I LOVE the theater!
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The white boy point system...
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Mar 17, 2005 2:04 am
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OK, so at rehearsal tonight, one of my co-stars and I were conversing about hair.
See, I'd had this brilliant idea, almost a year ago, that all of us playing Gods in the show should be blonde. This was inspired by the fact that all of the people playing mortals were brown-eyed brunettes, and pretty fair-skinned. Well, all of the mortals Except for the guy playing the Oracle, who is caught between the two worlds, and is Pilipino, so there you have it.
Since I usually bleach my hair when it is short, and one of the other Gods is already blonde, that left two brunettes to convince. Convincing P. that he should dye his hair was surprisingly easy. The other God, being a disaffected deity, who falls from grace, has had her hair dyed to look as though her deified blondness has grown out. Arent I clever?!?
OK, so fast-forward to today. P. and I were discussing hair care products, and which shampoos are best when one has offended ones hair by bleaching the FUCK out of it. I was talking about how Id slagged the FUCK across town to purchase 3 tubs of d:fi Pliable Molding Crèmea product certainly not DESIGNED for the Negrosity of my hair, but which works wonders because of all of the emollients contained therein.
P. then mentioned (which I did not know!) that his GF prior to his wife (he is recently married) was Black, and that theyd dated for 6 years or so, and that while theyd dated hed been, perforce, exposed to the Wonderful World of Black Womens Hair. We had a very lively discussion about this
and then I realized that Id just given him like 50 points for having dated a Black girl.
OK, well, I suppose that is because I am a Big Fat Racist, and I assume that any white boy who can actually maintain a relationship with a Black woman, and an intelligent one at that, (since hes mentioned her in the past, just never specified that she was Black) must be SupahCool.
Lame? Presumptuous? Who can say.
But now, geeze
now I kinda regret not having gotten in on that action when we first met, and before he was dating his (then) girlfriend. Now wife. But hey, again, obviously this flies in the face of the Once you go black
paradigm, so I suppose I should just shut the fuck up!!
Love
~Mollena
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The BEST message I have received to date.
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Mar 16, 2005 1:25 pm
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OK, so in my mailbox here on good ole ALT today, I had a message titled "You are very sexy".
Which is nice. But not necessarily original
BUT! Then I opened the message, and it was a one-liner. I was a bit disappointed, until I read it:
"My desire to give you oral sex is overwhelming...!"
*rotflmbbao*
I wonder if his desire is as overwhelming as mine to be the recipient of said cunnilingus? I mean, in general?
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xoxo
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kicking ass and wanking off....
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Mar 16, 2005 12:30 am
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The entirety of the cast of our show are company members of my theater company, Crowded Fire. Therefore, we all have a high degree of comfort with one another. Therefore, we rib one another mercilessly. Also, our capacity for theatrical shorthand is infinite. Plus, we are such consummate professionals (and when I say we I mean me) that shtick comes naturally and easily, and stunts fall right the first time. I have, for example, in one scene, two cues where props fall, godlike, as though conjured by my goddess prowess from the proscenium. One id a feather boa I must catch on my arm, and position within two bars of the intro to my solo for maximum diva effect. Of course, I achieved this on the first try. YES!!
I also managed to persuade the director that the hat meant for another character was FAR hotter on me, and that my idea of working the trick rigging on one of my fellow Gods costumes was brilliant comedy.
Damn, OK, I am in full effect tonight.
But
I am still woefully horny.
Time to whack off. Once or twice, at least!
xoxo
~Mollena
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