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The Princess Has Returned
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Jan 21, 2006 10:08 am
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As some of my more valiant and dedicated readers have been privately requesting my return, I decided it was about time to re-immerse myself. Between Christmas vacation and unnerving workloads pushing my hours to easily a 10 hour daily shift, getting back to the basics has been torture in itself. I also allowed myself to slip back into the vanilla world temporarily and found that I'm really better off here with my "family". Regardless to say that ended in total disaster, but at least I wasn't the one with a broken heart. Poor boy didn't have a kinky bone in his body. Shame.
Ah well, on to bigger and better things. I'm still not throwing myself 100% into things, work still has me with an ever increasing temper, irritability and stress level and I would hate to impose that wrath on an unknowing submissive. Thats not my style and I have no intention on letting that be a subs only perception of me.
On the other hand. Not a lot has been brought to my attention as far as topics to write about, maybe I will get back up to my old writing habits, but that will take time and new ideas which seem to be lacking this new year. That and trying not to kill myself at work (these planes are like evil Doms, I come home with so many bumps an bruises you'd think I was beaten silly by a dominate with a heavy hand!)
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Merry Christmas
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Dec 22, 2005 1:47 am
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I'm headed home on leave to spend time with the family. I know I haven't written in a while, but not much on the kink side has been happening worth any note.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to everyone.
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Approaching the horse, but not in the saddle yet
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Dec 10, 2005 11:06 pm
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I've been trying to keep my wits about me and not let everything that I've worked so hard at go so easily. So I meandered back to the local dungeon and was equipped with more toys.
It seems tho that I've been giving off the air of submission and that I'm easy to mess around with by getting a handful of ice down my shirt and smacked around on my ass and thighs with a acrylic paint stir paddle (getting my cell phone broken in the process too). It was obvious to other Dom's watching was what happening that I was not enjoying myself and the ones "playing" with me we're ignoring my safe word and put a stop to that quickly. A fire play demo on myself helped relax me a little bit. That was intense and highly erotic for sure.
Later in the night I got to share a super masochist with a sadist and brought up my spirits immensely. I don't want to say I was taking out my anger on him from what happened to me earlier, but what a stress relief. After that ended someone wanted to break in my new flogger on me. What a mistake.
Mind you, I live by the motto, if I can't take it I wont dish it out and I will always try something before using it on a sub. So I let him do it. Now I'm usually a hard ass when it comes to things like that, but this Dom had me in tears from this flogging. I had to literally walk away for it to stop. Talk about a non consensual day.
This day has definitely left me with a bad taste in my mouth over the whole lifestyle. I trust the people that have accepted me even less, and has furthered my decision to move back into the vanilla lifestyle. Yet I don't think I could so easily give up what I've already gone so deep into so easily.... I just know that I can't keep doing it alone...
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I hate snow
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Dec 7, 2005 2:26 pm
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Even growing up in Toronto, I loved the snow and all the activities that come with it. Now that I've spent the past 3 winters between Florida and San Diego, I can't stand the snow. Today OKC had our first snowstorm of the year and it was the horrible kind thats just fluffy and gets blown around everywhere. Another thing that you wouldn't experience as a kid but now scares the hell out of me is trying to drive in the stuff! Today was my first day driving in snow and my God it was traumatic when I couldn't take a curve without loosing traction and swerving around everywhere.
This is going to be a difficult winter.
I just hope it snows enough that the base closes tomorrow and I wont have to work.
On another note, even tho I'm writing, I'm not back in the saddle yet. I'm still fighting health issues which have got me fairly down. Thanks for everyones well wishes.
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Unhappily ever after...
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Nov 28, 2005 3:45 pm
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Once again something has come up that has thrown me for a loop. I must back away from the site that so dearly takes up a lot of my evenings (lol) and make sure I'm taking care of myself more than anything.
Its been fun. Take care.
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Happy Turkey Day
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Nov 24, 2005 11:17 am
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Hope everyone has a great Turkey Day today. I celebrated back in October along with the Canadian Thanksgiving and home is just too far away, so a day off work and dinner at Dennys is in order (seeing how no one else I know stuck around town).
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Yay!
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Nov 23, 2005 4:08 pm
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Ive been putting off writing about this for a few days simply because I wasn't sure how true the rumor was.
I found out today that I am getting promoted at work. After taking the exam 3 times and waiting 2 years for a promotion I finally made Petty Officer 2nd Class (E-5).
I get frocked in two weeks (wear the crow and call myself an AE2) but wont get the pay for a bit.
What a relief tho to not have to worry about promotions for awhile now. That and I get to take over the supervisor position at work woohoo. Oh the power.....
mmmmmm
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DPRC
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Nov 20, 2005 11:04 am
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I know most in the family don't hit my blog, but after last night I just have to write a quick blurb.
Never have I felt so accepted into a group such as the lifestyle community here in OKC. I know I was bashing my move out here yesterday, but I can easily say DPRC has made things a little easier out here.
Between learning more about our "craft" and meeting like minded people... I will never be able to look at a ferret, flashlight, sunglasses, computer or a 707 jet the same...
I don't know where I'm going with this, but I guess if there are any local readers interested in learning about DPRC or coming out for a night of play, just let me know.
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Forever alone...
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Nov 19, 2005 5:51 pm
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Man am I feeling down today. This whole week, even tho I've been blessed with having the flu shot (my arm is still hurting fucking needles), I had this overwhelming feeling of being alone. Some nights are so tough on the psyche that I was almost reduced to tears. I've come to the ultimate conclusion since I was transfered to Oklahoma. I don't have to keep up the farce. I can be very strong and somewhat stubborn when I want to be still, but I'm definitely not strong willed. My independance has wavered to the point where I crave to be dependant on someone else for awhile until I can pick myself back up and look deep and hard to who I really am.
Alot has been going on, some I've mentioned in my blog, but other factors I have yet to come to terms with have left me in a nervous, emotional train wreck.
I know I'm still young and I've got alot to experience yet, but I look around when I'm out and about (which isn't often) or to the guys at work, and see happy couples together all the time. Oh how I crave to just curl up in someones arms at night, knowing everything is going to be ok. Something as simple as that seems to be so far out of reach, that the unattainable feeling has plunged me deeper into the path of depression I'm falling into.
I know I started rambling along time ago, but I've come to the conclusion that taking orders to Oklahoma was THE worst thing I could have possibly ever done.... I was so happy in San Diego... *grumbles something bad about the military*
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Still waiting?
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Nov 18, 2005 1:12 pm
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I know I've been slacking. I got the flu shot on Tuesday and its put me pretty much out of commission. Its mandatory for active duty to get each year, but I spend more time sick from the flu shot each year than I do with a common cold.
Until I'm well, I'm gunna be hiding in my bed under a bunch of blankets trying to shake this off. Later Gators
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