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Hypocrites ... why some people are so delusional in their "fight" for a better BDSM world
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Jul 2, 2006 9:22 am
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It was brought to my attention that some people do not practice what they preach.. or st least.. more like do as i say.. not as i do kinda thing.. lol
and this same person also aforementioned that there was also problems.. but more on that later..
there is a blog watch dog group out.. *that has been so "lovingly" named the puppy patrol by several bloggers" that is suppose to be out there reading the blogs scouring for any signs of abuse and mistreatments.. "for those who cannot defend themselves" kinda bit.. -rolls eyes- funny how that one started up.. -lol-
yet when someone does something SMARTER BETTER and much more SAVVY.. this so called "group" gets their leather thongs in bunches.. cause hey.. if you don't like what's happening .. just call ALT... i mean they OWN the blogs.. they OWN our names.. they OWN everything we do on this site.. don't like it.. get off the fucking site.. it's simple as that.. yes.. DEAL with the censorship.. cause they as a INC. can and will do what ever they can do to protect themselves.. even if that means shutting off profiles.. deleting blogs.. and even BANNING your ass...
As for the so called "fight" for a better BDSM world.. sorry this is a fight your losing mainly.. cause everyone see's how at odds you all are.. i mean the bickering.. and shit.. and funny how you stated.. blinded followers.. .. they are not blind.. they just see.. someone who begs to be the center of attention.. and gets mad about not being the number one blogger..
BDSM.. is and will always be interpreted in so many way by so many people.. it's like a buffet.. so many choices.. so many different ways of dishes made.. when we walk up to it.. with our plate.. we see and even lick our lips.. we take what we like.. leave what we don't.. go up for seconds.. and even try something we have never tied before.. if we like it.. we know we can do that again.. if we don't we gain the knowledge of knowing this is not what we want the next time around..
and that to me.. is what BDSM.. *great food analogy right?..thats cause i am hungry.. lol* can be taken for so many people.. why be a cookie cutter carbon copy.. why do as everyone says.. why be like everyone else..
"Defiance is beautiful. The defiance of power, especially great or overwhelming power, exalts and glorifies the rebel."
-Edward Abbey
"You say you hate the way you are then why must you insist on making me your clone?"
-Anonymous
"You were born an original. Don't die a clone."
-Anonymous
ok.. off to eat
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I write Sins..... not Tragedies
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Jun 30, 2006 10:52 am
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I thought i'd steal a blog title from a song i like...
mainly reflects my blog..
Sins.. i have done.. against mainly.. myself.. to deny myself many things.. mainly cause of fear.. in times that i have been happy.. there is always something in the air.. that feeling of doubt.. feelings of unsure.. creep across my head..
the sins i have commented.. against my body.. starvation.. the cutting.. the self hate.. the monsters i see in the mirror.. self injury..
my arms have.. pushed away.. my hands have harmed.. my heart so cold.. and icy.. my mind enraged.. my mouth has cursed.. my feet have kicked away...
but......
the joy i have.. the hope that carries.. to not deny my heart of feelings.. feelings of self love.. empowerment.. to hold my head up.. to put the blade down.. to fix myself a plate.. and eat with out the guilt..
the forgiveness.. i must give myself.. my body.. to love myself again.. the look into the mirror.. and see the beauty that is there.. to stop the self pain...
to know.. my arms have held... my hands.. have caressed.. my heard burns with a passion.. my mind.. so calm.. my mouth.. has kissed.. tender kisses.. my feet still and demure..
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top 20 keywords in my blog
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Jun 29, 2006 3:30 am
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blood(23) phone(23) water(21) watched(21) food(21)
black(20) japanese(19) wear(19) lips(17) books(16)
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3000 comments.. and a down grade.. a musing.. a rant.. and me..
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Jun 28, 2006 11:47 am
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Hellp A/all once again...
I called ALT lastnight.. and asked if they would down grade me from silver to standard..
no no i am not leaving the site..
so no.. your prayers have not been answered..lol
i am just talking a reprieve if you will.. i mean why pay for a service you hardly use?.. i mean .. if i wanted to stay silver or even go gold.. i would have to be on the site 24/7.. and chat up everyone.. i come across.. that means.. having no job.. just letting my kids *if i had any* running around like raga muffins.. and thinking i am the all mighty ruler of alt.. but i am not.. and i don't.. so.. why do it?
i was running across some blogs.. and i still see the so called puppy patrol is still on the hound.. *ha ha ..yes pun intended* .. its funny.. how those who preach about being so non judgmental are.. the ones to judge..
filthy hypocrites if i say so myself.. why in the fuck would you want to be one.. stand there and support.. what happened to one person.. then bat your glued on lashes.. and be against it the next.. fickle.. fickle.. oh and yet using that person as your martyr how noble! LMAO
well anywho..
no matter.. i think being standard, will give me time.. to answer all of the new comments i have gotten!! 3000 comments.. on my blog.. wow.. i know some of these are mine.. but its still means.. someone written.. and i replied..
i've come a long way.. in my short time here.. and i have one person to thank.. that is me.. lol
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Slashing My Wrists On The Razor Blade Of Love..
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Jun 27, 2006 12:22 am
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Your fingers so sharp and smooth..
Your words cut thru me..
Your eyes pierce my flesh..
Your image carves into my mind..
Your touch slashes my senses..
slowly i take You across my flesh..
touch me..
caresses my flesh..
releasing my crimson love..
slashing my wrists on the razor blade of love..
.. dark .. yes.. but just something that has been storming thru my brain as of late..
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i've not been well
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Jun 26, 2006 10:27 am
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Hello and Greetings all..
i am sorry i haven't been on much.. i have been rather ill as of late. lack of food and sleep kinda does it to you i guess..
well i am moving yet again.. this time my online time will be more scarce so i will blog when i want.. more like when i can..
i am turning off my home phone.. mainly cause someone keeps calling and not saying anything,, it's rather tripping me out.. the last thing i want is someone saying "are you alone in the house?" i'll still have my cellphone.. cause it's now blocking calls that either someone used *67 or it shows up unavailable..
i am still pondering the job at FoxWoods Casino and resort. but as i said before.. i am kind of fear of my safty.. cause after all an e-mail stating if i don't stop what ever i am doing i may end up in a bad place.. is kind of scary.. but the proper authorities have been notified.. *tis great when you have a father/uncles/and other family members who work for uncle sam*
yes.. they know.. and seen the e-mail 
you never know what nuts you come across.. on this site.. they seem pretty normal.. then go on about how some secret society is out to get them.. very odd.. indeed...
my sisters and i plan on going to an anime convention not sure which ones.. there are 4 of us.. and we all plan on going as the Goddesses from Oh My Goddess! My older sister will be Peroth a Younger sis Skuld I will be Belldandy and the other will be Urd. which means 4costume changes apiece .. ugh.. i didn't want to do it.. cause the wings alone are hard to put on..
i said we all should go as the girls from Tenchi! i just want to dye my hair a livid pink and be Washu! the evil genius of the universe! *sighs* But no.. basic brown hair.. and frilly dresses..
ah i am rambling now.. but i want to take a small nap before work..
goodnight
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June 24th.. 3 years.. ago i wrote this letter.. after my son died..and now i share it with you.....
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Jun 24, 2006 10:38 am
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June 25 2003
Dear Son,
Words cannot express how much I miss and love you. I miss your laugh, your goofy smile *which you did get from me* But i know in my heart of hearts, you was needed elsewhere. I know your playing peekaboo with the angels and having fun. Teach your great grandfathers to read, I am sending your favorite books *harry potter* I thank you son, for making me grow up yet knowing, I am never to old to watch Blues Clues and Tellietubbies...even if I was by myself. To understand the concept of peekaboo, to believe in miracles, to love unconditionally, to play, to laugh and mean it, to be goofy regardless of what people say, to appreciate the fact that something so small can have a smile so big and bright to light New York City, to know the best thing in life at time was a cookie, when life gives you lemons make lemonade; cause next to apple juice it was your favorite thing to drink, to understand that life is wonderful no matter what, and last but not least... that angels do come to Earth to visit... they are our children.
with much love and bright blessings
mommy
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i feel sucky today.. really i do.. so please come here.. and let me suck you off.. Oral Fixation....
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Jun 22, 2006 6:42 am
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i remember the first time i posted about my oral fixation.. it was like post 30.. or something or that matter..
i never fully dropped my binky.. paci or what have you till i was about 25.. i used to suck my thumb when i was about 2-10.. then my mum got me a paci when the dentist said that a paci is better then a thumb at night.. it's softer and doesn't throw the teeth out of wack, *yes.. i had to wear a retainer, for 4 years.. but i have great teeth now* i still have a chew toy in the fridge.. in case a craving comes up..
like right now.. i want to suck.. i want to lick.. i want the taste of precum in my mouth.. i want to be attentive in my sucking.. i want to just kneel there and let you fuck my mouth.. grab a fist full of hair if you wish.. it only gets me more excited..
i spend so much money on lip conditioners.. to keep them soft.. and shiney.. my gag reflex.. is not very sensitive.. i want to just kiss your cock.. i feel very sucky today..
so how about cheering me up?
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i am feeling more like me every day.. don't belive me.. touch me and see.. mmmmmmmm not there tho..
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Jun 20, 2006 1:05 am
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Greetings A/all
how are all of you today?.. doing well i hope?
i am doing much better, so much better..
thanks to one person.. i think i am on the right direction.. my frinds are doing fine.. we lan on having a mock play party.. meaninf.. it will be like a play party.. but not.. is you can get that?.. lol.. i will be taching them how to use a flogger.. a single tail.. a crop.. and even how to properly use a cane..
they are all excited.. i how ever am nervous with the impending tutorial, i know i will get hurt.. but hey i know it will be out of love.. and adoration that i'll be getting a bruise, welt.. and even a cut here or there. which i am fine with that.. cause hey i can soak up all of the affection and aftercare rub downs and pampering right?
well any who.. i gotta go to bed.. night
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