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May 7, 2005 2:10 am
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First, I apologise for the typos in the 04-29 opener. I actually started this 'blog' on 04-28 and no part of it has appeared. There were no typos in it and it was followed by a ps. that I enjoyed writing and reviewing. Both may be lost or not, if there is anyone with suggestions please post in comments or e-mail to handle.
I am seperated now for almost 4 years and will divorce when I can afford to do so. I suffered some medical problems due to a work related accident and will post about them someday but not today. I found this site in a group of 'junk' mail waiting for the delete button. I can't say what caused my interest but I pushed the button and here we are.
I have posted in the Magazine section with less than average marks. More people disagreed with what I wrote than agreed. I will keep posting because I would not want to become anyones sheep, I believe in thought provoking dialog and it is good clean fun. Some of my posts have poked a little fun at the writers lack of information when asking for their particular bit of advice, others have been replies with more information than necessary because the answer allowed me to pass on modern day government run-arounds in my own experience and the rest were advice I felt was the answer I would give in person.
I have used the term 'new' several times in chat rooms when referring to myself and I would like to take that back here. 'New' is a poor description because that intimates I am decidedly one of this group, and that is not a fair assessment of me. Do not take this wrong please, I have not judged you and placed you on any good or bad lists I happen to have. In all fairness I have made no choice and have little data to base my decision on. I still come back here because I like most of the people I have either chatted with or have read in the chatrooms. I have liked most of the Advice line answers whether I have agreed or not. I am still gathering data and will let you know how I decide, when I decide.
The list I have begun in this search has three very good 'plus' points so far. This group is very intellegent by and large, most have a better than average grasp of the language and use it well in posts, though I am still at a disadvantage with the shorthand most groups adapt. That brings consideration to the fore. I am most able to ask about bits that lose me in typed conversation and I have always been given answers with polite explanations. I enjoy the first two but the courtesy and respect that pass through all of this site are by far my favorite. I was raised in Kentucky with a switch to speak and act like most of you here. You make me feel as if I were home and in the time of my youth when most people spoke as you do here, I thank you all for that.
This part just written is what I 'think' is the evolution of the Master/slave relationship that reflects the larger part of your written language. I admit there is much more than that and I will continue to ask and learn about it.
The next part is going to be the hardest for me. I was raised as a 'bastard' in the home I grew up in. My step-father put me in what you write here as 'sub-space' more times than I ever hope to remember, I find inflicting pain difficult to consider as the result of a loving relationship. I have been told in one chat room about a very nice man in Fla. that was beaten by six people for an hour and he reached 'sub-space' for several hours, he loved it. I could not comment, that was a new concept for me. Until I speak to him again I can't say much more than it seemed to me he volunteered for this and I don't think it was the first time or last time he will seek it out.
The other side of this coin has me drawing blanks too. I can only imagine that there is an understood level of pain to be given and/or taken. Is this necessarily a part of all in this site? How much of this is physical and how much if any, is psycological. I believe both can do equal damage, I apologise, both can cause equal ammounts of pain and I suspect the level of pain is agreed on. The mention of a 'safe' word is my reason for this suspicion. It also is the same thing that makes me think there may be more danger in smaller 'parties'. I will also write more on this as I learn.
I thank all of you that I have bumped into here and look forward to meeting more.
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Welcome to my mind
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Apr 29, 2005 8:49 am
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A few one or two liners...Serious
These things I have said to myself
Many times and now I wish to
Say them to you
Hear me.
I want to know more of you because
You are a beautiful person and being
So you are rare to the world and
Very dear to me
I care.
I want to walk alone with you in a
Quiet and beautiful place, to hold your
Hand and talk of different people, far
Away places and the happiness you
Bring to me.
Come, sit by my side and hear me speak
Of my Queen, sift through all that is
You and find her, for she is needed.
I grow older and the need is still a
Patient urgency, a place to fill to
Become complete.
Need me as I need others than
You, I require the fullfilment of
Others by my own hand to remain
Constant in my need of you.
I must be me complete before
I can become me completed
Say you can.
Keith
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I lead this space with my heart as percieved by my mind.
***************Waiting for more that was misplaced during installation. Expect new and older pieces as time allows.
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