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New Tattoo Oct 27, 2005 6:17 am
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Went to Halloween Horror Nights this past weekend with my roommate, the next day we stopped by the tattoo shop and got these butterfly fairy's... Her is different shades of blue and on her forearm instead of back... What do you think? I like it.
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Foreign Flicks Oct 19, 2005 6:35 pm
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Top Ten in No Particular Order

Amelie

Frida

Sex and Lucia - really interesting fascinating movie

Y Tu Mama, Tambien - awesome movie

3-Iron - Really quiet awesome movie, almost no dialogue, not for everybody but a really sweet, different love story

Bride with White Hair

Dinner Games

Happenstance

Like Water for Chocolate

God is Brazilian
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Top Ten Films Oct 19, 2005 7:55 am
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In no particular order:

Legend

The Princess Bride

The Fifth Element

The Dark Crystal

Fight Club

The Last Unicorn

Sin City

Dogma

Harold and Kumar go to White Castle

Dazed and Confused

Plus Some of my Favorite Foreign Flicks:

The Bride with White Hair

Happenstance

Dinner Games

House of Flying Daggers

Billy Elliot

Well I would have listed more Foreign Flicks but somehow my list got deleted, I'll look them up later and post the rest.... nite
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Me Oct 15, 2005 7:58 pm
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I know everyone does the 100 things and so will I but I'd rather break them up cuz I always get tired of reading them by line 30 or so.

1. I used to hitchhike all over the southeast for fun on the weekends.

2. I like wavy gravy ice cream.

3. I thought coffee tasted like burned water until I turned 29.

4. I've ridden a goat, turtle, camel, and horses. (No, not like that. Get your mind out of the gutter)

5. I love music, own 2 iPods, and over 300 cd's.

6. I've slept with more women than men.

7. Every star tattoo I have is for someone who has pasted on.

8. I'm pagan.

9. I won't sleep with pro-lifers.

10. I lived on a roof in downtown Savannah because I loved the city so much I couldn't stay away but had to wait a month for my my place to be ready.
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Life is always Good Oct 15, 2005 6:22 pm
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This was a responce of mine from the group Adult Little Girls Group - Please no daddy! It's too big!

The topic dealt with different ways grown women handled the feeling abuse had left them with.

When I was 5 or 6 I stayed with a very good friend of the family for a couple of months due to problems my parents were having... The wife had promised I'd never be home alone, or even just with her husband there since he wasn't as close to the family... For years the months I stayed with them were blank, but at a very young age (maybe 8 or 9) most of the games I played involved being caged and some unformed sense of pleasure. Three months before my 16 birthday I became sexually active, for years after that I craved sex but often got little pleasure from it, by 17 I was naturally starting to become submissive and the sex did more for me. I always responded better to strong males, dominate people that often were the kinds of guys who could "take care of themselves" in a fight, men that were stong enough to subdue/win me even though I rarely tested that. I loved being called sweetie, baby, ect. Around 19 I messed around with a guy who liked to be called Master and directing sex, I loved it but he was a complete jerk. I had a couple more experiences after that before I got with my current love. I knew the first time we slept together that he was the one, he was the first one to make me cum from regular sex, what no one else could do is easy for him. When he gives me some sub/dom time, I can cum the whole time in long rolling orgasms. But to this day being called a bad girl turns me on, being caged turns me on, being used turns me on, I can come from being commanded to give head, I love kneeling at his feet. I now remember just a little bit of the time with that family... the husband did cage me, he made me do things with his slightly older son and he took pictures, he made me kiss and lick his dick, he put his fingers inside me, he called me a bad girl, told me it was my fault he had to do it to me, when he was happy he called me a good girl and told me how good I felt, he called me a little slut, and when he wasn't fucking around with me he always called me sweetie.... All of these things are some of my biggest turn ons, I can't help it, I didn't choose it, I didn't even remember what had happened until way after these things were already known for turning me on... So what can I do? Cry about some dick that fucked around with a little kid years ago and hate/blame myself for what I love... Fuck that! I love sex, what happened was unfortunate but I've already paid the price and I'm not about to give up things that make me feel good, ya it's a little twisted but so are most things in life. He was nice to me, paid attention to me, it was natural to want to please him, that's what little kids do, try to make the people around them happy with them so they will spend time with them. It sucks cuz it set me up to enjoy pain, to look for the wrong kind of guy, to need weird triggers to get off, but everyone has problems, so I just don't sweat it that much. I think Tor's doing a good job of being supportive to his woman, as long as it's what she wants then give it to her, just be there when she cries too. MrM, I totally understand where your coming from, no you are not disturbed for still being scared, just don't take it out on anyone else (which is very common in your situation or I wouldn't mention it but it sounds like your doing a good job of properly channeling your need to control). Sub while your reaction is valid it is less common and might be hard for some people to consider, I would never consider having sex with the man who hurt me, actually if there was any way to find him I'd rip his balls off, if not for my pain to keep him from ever fucking up another kids life. Love to all of you, stay safe, play safe, but live on the dangerous edge cuz we all know that's where all the pleasure is.
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I dream... Oct 14, 2005 1:02 am
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I dream about being collared, tied with my hands behind me, wearing a sweet heart style black corset and a loose ribbon skirt with no panties but true stockings. A man whips me with an medium flogger, sometimes pausing to whisper all kinds of naughty things to me... once I'm totally sub his slave comes in she pinches my nipples, plays with my clit while he finishes me off with a rabbit flogger now he closes in on me, pressing against me, holding my neck... she's giving me head and he's grinding me from behind telling me what he's gonna make me do to her .... I cum and cum and cum, they take me down, lock me in a small dark room no bigger than a walk in closet... when I wake up he's there holding my leash I crawl after him to their bed... he commands me... I make her cum and cum and cum then he locks me to the bottom of the bed so I can see but where I can't touch myself while he starts in on her.... much later they go to sleep ... she wakes in the night and in absolute silence slips off the bed, now she's so aggressive, pulling my hair, grinding her pussy into my mouth, in a deathly quiet I make her cum... she pulls away kissing herself threw me licking her own juices from my face.... fingering me biting my neck licking my nipples sliding her tongue over my belly, sucking my box licking with that pierced tongue, sliding her fingers in and out of my pussy, gently slipping one finger in my ass... till I pass out from pleasure....

This is a post from my Adult FriendFinder blog that I thought you all might enjoy. Licks & Kisses, Kitten
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Topping from the Bottom? Oct 13, 2005 7:07 pm
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I'd like to hear how other people would view me, so I'm going to describe my craving, my limits... I'd be grateful to hear if any of you think I'm topping from the bottom.

I crave bowing to him, desire to be on my kneels in front of him, will lay with my head at his waist basking in being near him as he reads, I love being collared, chained, flogged, I like limits in my life, for myself I only believe people who will say no to you love you, there is nothing better than his touch, I have absolutely no desire and never even look at other men, I feel like my body is his do with as he pleases including if he truly wanted to give it to someone else for the night, although I hate house work when I do it for him it brings me pleasure, I hate cooking but try to learn new recipes just for him, when I'm shopping I try to think of things he needs and often bring him something home, I try to look good for him, I always try to buy perfume that he likes, I buy my lingerie with his taste in mind.

I love to serve, have almost no limits on what I would do for my Lord. The exception is although we have an open relationship I will not accept him hiding or acting like it is his private business.... We started out in a normal vanilla relationship, I am the one who brought up and gave my permission for that to change and all I asked was for him not to lie to me, not to hurt me, that he could sleep with other women but only as long as our sex life didn't suffer because of it.... The other open relationships I'd had were fun, Larry would go out, have sex with some girl, come home and whisper the details to me as we had some of the best sex ever... my Lord never really got that, he made some mistakes and definitely was in the wrong over the summer, he managed to cheat on me, which should have been all most impossible. So I have stricter rules, and this is one arena in my life I will not submit fully to, I will not give him blanket permission to fuck whatever he wants however he want, either he plays by my rules or we don't play like that, or if that's not acceptable we can split up.... This is one of the few places I have a rule that I won't bend on... Does this mean I'm not a true sub? Other than this and the fact I act very assertive in my outside life I'm totally submissive, well I won't back down when it comes to issues of raising my daughter, I'm not just gonna bow to him when I don't agree with him that would make me a bad mother, and I won't stand for that.... Not that he asks me to either let him fuck anything he wants or to let him raise my daughter however he wants he just uses that in our arguements as examples why I am not a sub....So what do you think, am I a sub? Please ask any question you'd like to have a better understanding of my feeling to provide a more thoughtful answer...
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Confusion on exact differences between Subs and Slaves Oct 13, 2005 7:48 am
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I'm hoping for a true and definite definition of Subs and Slaves. I have a the idea that a sub is someone who willing submits but there is always the possibility if treated badly they may leave the relationship. I guess I think of a sub as having a few rules, and a slave as having given up the right to rules the moment they finally submit to a master. A slaves choices are all made about who their master is but a sub chooses a master while still perhaps retaining a few rules. Is this an accurate definition? I would love to hear from some more knowledgeable people who could maybe clarify or correct my understanding.

Update

My quest is complicated by my situation. I am looking for definitions so I can present them to my Lord in the hopes that we can have better discussions about sub/dom relationship, so that he can see the many different and accepted levels, to broaden his views, also because I have polygamist leanings and would like to find a live in girlfriend, I'm a funny mix, if you've ever read Mercedes Lackey she rights about the kinder folk, who live in family's of one dom male who decides life and death and then a group of wives, but there in an order to it, I wish to be first wife in my home, it's extremely important to me to control the way my house looks, the bills, ect... as anyone who runs a home most have experienced it best for one person to over see the bills & chores or else it's all to easy to make a muddle of the check book and nobody ever knows where the socks are, I take care of everything for my Lord as he wishes and he gives me a free hand to run the house as long as I provide for his comfort, but in the bed room I would not care wither my girlfriend was sub or dom, I can switch, seeing as for me it is just another form of submission, giving my love what they want.

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Collar Oct 13, 2005 7:37 am
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This was my responce to a topic in the bondage group collars - thought you might find it interesting.

I envy you, my Lord is not in the lifestyle so I'm forced to sub in the most subtle ways, as such I always wear a necklace he has given me, and I try my best to never remove them myself but to wait and ask him sweetly if he would mind helping me, every great once in a while I will get the greatest gift and am able through some luck to kneel at his feet as he fastens the necklace. I would give anything for him to take me to our local leather store, who is very understanding, have me kneel, and then select a collar for me, it could only be improved by him requiring me to wear my long coat with nothing underneath, and arranging a private fitting, when we got there having me naked and cold kneeling on a hard concrete floor eyes closed, head bowed, as the owner measured my neck, wrist, ankles and anything else my Lord wished.... I prey for the day something like that might happen but I would be overwhelmed by him bringing home even the simplest of collars and placing it around my neck....

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