Now widowed for many months, I am a healthy, bright, financially independent, and active woman who has been the devoted slave and cockslut of my two late husbands over the course of the last twenty-seven years. I now seek a lasting bond to a man who will value and want to enjoy the fact that I am a lifelong submissive with a chronic sexual addiction.
I am on here, then, with an eye to marriage to a man who is very open-minded and who would accept and encourage my need frequently to service a variety of men, including black men. My relationship with my future husband will of course be one of love, commitment, mutual respect, trust, and the deepest level of communication. But it will not be monogamous. Rather, like my two late Masters, my husband will expect me regularly to show off and present my body for the use of his friends and other men as the slut I am. He will do this for his pleasure and with the understanding that our love is reserved for one another alone. We will keep no secrets and openly communicate about everything we do.
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My Ideal Person:
My ideal future partner will thus be a mature man of strength, character, an open adventurous nature, and long experience as a Dom or Master in the lifestyle. He will be an experienced and patient trainer, adept at fashioning his slave's body to the service of his desires (just as my first husband worked so hard to program my vaginal muscles to the skills of ESP). He will be sophisticated in the sadistic arts, expert in administering those exquisite torments that can bring a needy masochist to repeated orgasms. (You might guess that both of my husbands considered me especially "useful" for breast torments and play.)
Most importantly, my husband will not be the insecure, jealous, possessive type. Instead, he will regard me as his willing slut to be displayed and shared with other men (and occasionally women), perhaps his closest friends among them. Ideally he will want to watch or participate, as I would hope. Perhaps he will want to take me to clubs or parties to introduce me to men, always expecting me to respect his authority on such matters, including the men I serve. Sometimes he will want me to entertain him and his buddies by hostessing at-home poker or sports TV parties or by submitting to gangbangs, soul trains, public sex, or various activities sometimes considered extreme. Always he can be sure that I will want to reward his openness about me in whatever ways he might imagine, catering to his every need (how do you like to be awakened in the mornings?) and readily submitting to his administrations of humiliations and punishments should I fail to satisfy his expectations. And above all, he will be confident that while my sex addiction might generate an unquenchable compulsion to share my body with a variety of different men, he is the one indispensable man in my life: my anchor, my source of discipline in my life, and my moral compass.
Two more things. First, I have to admit that I have long been compellingly drawn to the service of black men. As my late husband used to tease, my next husband and Master should be a sophisticated black man with lots of black friends.
Of course, I realize that one cannot always fulfill one's dreams. Both of my late husbands were white, and I am open to the possibility of serving a white Master. I would just hope that, like my late husbands, he would at least occasionally find pleasure in watching me in the company of a black man or men..
Second, I do realize that such men are rare and that finding such a man will require my time and patience. During that time my addiction will not permit me to await such a bond. Even while I'm single, therefore, I need to seek out vital and open-minded men, young or more mature, who would enjoy intense and intimate pleasures with a full-figured and needy slut such as myself. This would not be for romance, commitment, or even lasting friendship. I am speaking here of strictly no-strings hookups. The men I like should be sexually aggressive, controlling, and very kinky -- men who like to take charge. I am open to a man or men of any race, but I should say that I would be especially receptive to opportunities to hook up with a black man or men.
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