I regret to say that my Master, age 83, has reached an age and condition of health that have set me on a new, awkward, and emotionally difficult path: he is now encouraging me to be open to the possibility of a new Master. At Phil's direction, I am seeking acquaintance and possible commitment with a mature Master, long in the lifesytle and sophisticated in the arts -- a man who might be interested in taking ownership of me as a full-time, live-in slave when Phil passes away. Ideally he would live in Southern California, the South Bay area best of all. Ideally, too, he would share a certain quality with my previous Masters: he should find joy and pleasure in making his slave serve him not just as his 24/7 all purpose house-servant but also as his slut to be shown and regularly shared. At my Master's behest, I am advised that I should be especially open to the possibility of a Black Master.
For your information, I have been in the lifestyle for nearly thirty years, beginning with Kevin, my first husband and Master. Kevin was 27 years my senior, just as my current Master, Phil, is 25 years my senior. Neither can be described as a "Daddy Dom," but both have been father figures to me.
With both Kevin and Phil, I have been trained as a full-time, full-service slave. My duties have included regular household tasks (cooking, housecleaning, laundry, shopping, gardening, etc.), and I believe I can be considered a meticulous homemaker and, when necessary, a loving caregiver. My duties have also included preparation for and the hostessing of weekend poker, football, baseball, and basketball parties for my husband and his friends. With both Kevin and Phil, I have been 24/7 sex slave and slut, always there to entertain and bring satisfaction to my Master, his friends, men to whom my Master has granted entitlements with me, or whomever he would direct. Especially with Kevin, I have also been masochist and pain slut, having learned to be orgasmic from the experience of certain kinds of torments and humiliations my Master would administer.
I have one child, Gary, of whom Kevin was the legal father. Gary is 26, was trained as a Master by Kevin, and now lives in San Jose, California with his wife and slave of two years. My next Master will need to understand that I have a longtime special relationship with Gary.
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My Ideal Person:
A mature, intelligent, and sophisticated man, many years in the lifestyle. He should have previously owned, trained, and had responsibility for full-time, full-service, live-in slaves. Emotionally as well as financially stable, he should be as much in control of himself as he is of the slave he commands. He should have experience and skill in the sadistic arts. He should have an unquenchable libido. And perhaps above all, he should not be the jealous, insecure, and possessive type.
Whether he be Black or white, my next Master should not resent my often overwhelming sexual needs, diagnosed since my childhood as a chronic sexual addiction. Rather, he should find joy and pleasure in regularly displaying his slave, presenting her as a slut in public settings, and compelling her to serve his friends and other men, including Black men, as the insatiable slut for cock that she is. Making me serve in this way should be something that my next Master wants to make me do as a constant, everyday part of our lives together, not just something he occasionally permits or allows.
I cannot stress enough how important this is to me. When my Master WANTS to degrade me as his nasty cock slut and MAKES me do these things, he makes the decisions, and he takes responsibility for the slutty things I do. And I am thereby relieved of the guilt and shame that (thanks to my father's training and my Roman Catholic upbringing) have haunted my sexual addiction since my youth.
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