As of Nov 2011, I am taking a hiatus from this site for a few months. Thanks for stopping by.
Update: I am no longer new to this lifestyle (lol problem with not thinking far enough ahead when choosing names)....
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Hello. I am new to this...I came to the realization recently that I am a sub. Why do I feel this? Because I am always in the mode of pleasing others, because in my personal life I am willing to give up control -- often not only in the bedroom but also in my personal life. I have found that the more I investigate D/s, the more pieces of my life make sense.
I am not looking just for the physical aspects of this, even though I must admit I am very interested in them given I have been basically vanilla all my life. I am also looking for the mental aspects.
I feel that I have the opportunity to learn about myself, face fears, and build intimacy. I love the fact that there is a possiblitiy of extreme honesty and imtimacy, which for me emphasizes the physical aspects. For me, attraction starts mainly in my head.
I am smart and a fast learner. I will not submit to just anyone; I need to believe they are worthy of my submission. I am strong minded and at times strong willed -- I have needed to be in order to survive a number of set-backs in my life (as well as the fact I was brought up to be a strong woman). I am tired, though, of always being responsible and look for someone who can take that away from me for at least a little while. I am NOT looking for someone to take care of me -- my children and my life are my responsibility.
To be upfront, I am a single parent, which means I need to be cautious. I am also probably considered by some as a bbw -- this is something I desire to change, though, and would love direction and help with.
Oh, and because of my children, I am unable to relocate or travel very far. Finding time to meet is also difficult at times. And I will be taking things slower because I have so much more at stake, along with finding chemistry.
If any of this resonates with you, then please contact me and we can chat. I will be taking things slow since I need to be with someone who can be a friend as well.
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My Ideal Person:
While I am not looking for happily ever after, I am looking for happily for now. I am monogamous by nature -- and need that to build trust. So if you are expecting to add me into a group or are attached/married, just realize this is a hard limit for me and I won't play.
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