i signed up here once before and got scared...mostly of the feelings that were evolving in me....it's been a roller coaster but the thrill always outweighs the fear.
Thrill .... excitement.... giving up control...wooo hooooo. Learning what pleases You what pleases me. Learning who i am and what i'm made of. Learning to let go
i don't think this is so much about sex (all the hound dogs who think this is an easy way to get laid don't bother) as it is about intensity and feeling deeply.
i didn't want to loose the flavor of what i had originally stated. but life's circumstances have changed
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My Ideal Person:
i'd like to explore the lifestyle with someone who has excellent control of himself and would be encouraging to a new submissive....I've met a few of the wanna be's and don't really want to waste time in that area. And now i've met some one who i choose to travel this path with.
i'd like to explore the lifestyle with one who knows himself well enough to be honest in his feelings and desires. Someone who can help break down the barriers of dishonesty that have been built from years of having to hide who i was and what i not only wanted but needed, to be exactly who i am. His feelings include wanting to submiss me, to care for me to even love me exactly where and as i am. he listens with more than his ears, and delves into the spirit in which i say things not just the words.
I want someone who can read a damn tape measure if You are 5'1 say so...don't be 5'10 when advertising and 5'1 in reality.
Strength of character and of mind is a must
He has strength of character, he has creativity he has intelligence....and finds that i match him in every way. i am peaceful in his presence and delighted in his arms. i am whole in a fragmented sort of way and he likes all of me. My insanity, my little girl, my adult woman and my fears my joys my sorrow my delight...all have worth in O/our relationship.
For the first time in many years i don't have to wonder if my kink is normal or not...with him it is valued, explored and praised.
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