My Ideal Person:
Lady,i will touch you with my mind.
Touch you and touch and touch
until you give
me suddenly a smile, shyly obscene

(lady i will
touch you with my mind.)Touch
you, that is all,

lightly and you utterly will become
with infinite ease

the poem which i do not write.
~ee cummings

In my girlish dreams I dreamt of the tall dark handsome man. One of power, dignity and strength. One who could laugh with me, share with me, fight with me, love me…complete me.

I walked many roads in search of this completion. There were many pitfalls along the way, many mistakes made, many lessons learned. What did I look for? A Man that understands the meaning of friendship, of honor, of dignity. An ephemeral quality that is all His own...intellect, but not raving intelligentsia...laughter, but not lunacy...strength and passion and vision and sight. The ability to love even when it made Him squirmy and achy...and an understanding that love should not be complicated, but pure and unconditional (or as much as a human can achieve) - AND have the ability to allow me to love Him back without freaking out and fearing my passionate nature. A man that could see beyond the shell to the beauty within, because all outer beauty fades...it is only the inner that remains, grows and glows forever. I sought a Man who understands that tears take strength, not weakness...and who can let me cry in his arms over something beautiful as much as for something tragic. I sought a Man with raw seething sensuality that understands that an entire sonata can be contained in a kiss...that touch is grace and poetry...that passion can make you cry and scream all at the same time...One who understands that fucking and making love are two different things ... yet can be combined into one perfect joining.

I sought the glorious...the inwardly beautiful, the cipher, the enigma, the special. I sought the One whose eyes contained forever...who could be dark and light...who would not fear His Beast but revel in it. I sought One who did not fear His fragility, but felt safe with it in my hands. I sought One that could see the inner me, touch the inner me and strive to make her better...as I do him.

I stopped dreaming after a time, for I learned I expected too much. I wanted a complicated human - like me and not like me. I learned he didn't exist...and I stopped dreaming. I learned to not settle, but to accept.
And then one day the fates were kind and brought me to my Beast, the only man who could ever harness and love my beast with the Beast that prowls in his own soul. He is all those things mentioned above that I have so long sought...the perfect description of him in ways I never imagined or dared to dream. We are a powerful pairing, not one that many could match. The air crackles with the energy that we generate - almost like being caught outside in a thunder and lightening storm on an open prairie. One day I knew that I could not go on without Him and I knelt and humbly asked for his collar. He took me, accepted me and bound us with the willow...our symbol of graceful strength and unending endurance. Magnetic32, this One, this glorious One has completed me in ways that leave me breathless. My heart is slavebound to him forever and the vistas of our life are endless. Our B/beasts now rise together and greet the moon that begins each day for U/us. Each day we reach new heights only to discover that we have higher yet to go. It leaves us both gasping at the enormity some days and reveling in the growth we share always. I am deeply in love and am honored by the love he shows me every day, that love symbolized by the chain around my ankle that decries me as His.

From Domina, to switch to submissive and now slave, I've searched all my life and am simply stunned every waking day that my dreams, dreams that I'd ceased believing in have come true. My heart is full..my mind, body and soul are full. I am honored, humbled and deeply grateful for the gift of being allowed to serve this most perfectly amazing Man and to be allowed to strive every day to be all the best things He sees in me.

Magnetic32 is His name here. my Master, my Beast, My Best Friend, my Love, my Life, my One are His names engraved on my heart.

I am captured...I am safe...I am cherished...I am taken...I am loved.

Forever we shall howl as......1…knowing that our search is over and we are finally...

…home.

Yes, I do have a second profile on Alt, with the name Magnetics_storm attached. It is a private space for Mag Sir and I. Thank you for those of You concerned that I was hijacked!